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- I've not been on here for awile, I took some me time to deal with my emotions. I am not 100 percent,but in a better state of mind than I was a few months ago. I just recently went back to work, that helps to occupy my mind or until I get home...
- I've not been on here much lately, I've been doing things that needed to be done. I told myself I had to get up, I started getting our more with friends, took a part time job and have met some new friends. I still have days that I don't think I...
- I was talking with a few people and they were asking about dating and how long did I think it would be before I started again. One said I should just to get out, others said no wait a year. Im not ready for it yet, but it would be nice to have...
- The loss of my husband 5 months ago really broke me physically, mentally, and emotionally. I was feeling so bad I could barely function, the flashbacks, horrid dreams, stress over financial all weighed heavy on me than worrying about how my...
- I knew having the stone placed would be hard. It about brought me to mu knees. Seeing our names chisled in stone makes it so real. It opened up the flood gate of emotions and tears. I did my best to hobo him and pray he's looking down and saying...
- Its been almost 5 months since Jason was taken. The loneliness is gut wrenching and depressing. We didnt do alot with friends we enjoyed each others company from taking trips in the semi, riding our cycle, or messing in the garage. Now all I do is...
- Since my husband passed in August I have been sleeping on the couch. I decided I needed to go back to our room. After months I finally took the sheets off he last slept on. I changed the bed set to one we never used. Cleaned his night stand out put...
- The weather here has been crazy had tornado warnings and strong storms yesterday. I'm terrified of storms, Jason was always here to comfort me and let me know its just a storm. I didn't want to stay home alone so, I went with the kids to finish...
- Not slept well the last couple of nights thoughts racing. I had a couple dreams, the first I looking for my husband when I found out where he was he was in jail and I couldn't find my car to go he him. Last night he was leaving for work gave me a...
- Last night my kids wanted to take me to dinner, I knew as the evening got here the anxiety would start to set in, it does every night. I went and was fine on the way there and ok when we went in. Than it hit! All the memories of being at the...
- Woke up from a bad dream, Jason told me I was going to loose everything we worked so hard for, but I would be ok. The dream was so real and I was happy to see his face and hear his voice. I woke up in full panic! I've been worried about financial...
- I was supposed to goto a support group my sister found, I got ready and headed to the car, I froze and my anxiety took over. The group was meeting at the hospital I had to see my husband lay with tube's. I couldn't do it,Than the task of trying to...
- I hate that it gets dark so early, I did ok today had to take my car to get the oil changed. I finally drove without an attack, but my daughter was with me. I rarely go anywhere alone.Now that its dark the lonely, anxiety,and full force thinking...
- I go a few days feeling ok, than the anxiety takes over it makes me not want to leave the house, constant numbness, and light-headed. My thoughts are consuming. Since everyone is so busy with the holidays, I barely talk to anyone, no texts, calls,...
- I tried so hard today to get something accomplished, I put together a picture album of Jason, went for a ride with my daughter, went to the store, and crocheted a headband. My mind has been racing even though I tried to stay busy.Tomorrow will be 4...