Oh dear! I wish I could give you a big hug. You are so right. I have wondered this same thing. All of the 'why's' and that heartache is almost unbearable.
Sending you much Love and Light. You are not alone and you are among people who understand and who care.
-Becca

I don't know why anyone would think having a grief support group meet in a hospital is a good idea. It's understandable that you could not do it. We can be your support group and you don't even have to leave your home.

I'm so sorry about your financial strain along with this heavy burden of grief. Have you talked to your lenders about your situation? Sometimes they'll work with you. Also, I believe you can own a home and still get food stamps, if that would help at all.

I agree it seems very unfair that good people die when so many really bad people live on. I think most of us here share that feeling. That it's happened twice to you is just unimaginable.

I can feel the pain in your writing. Nothing I can say can help that right now. Just know I care, and you have a lot of others here who also care.

Warm hugs,
Linda

It sure is unbearable, I see alot of post on fb people saying how their lives suck because their car broke down, or some other petty crap. If they only knew how lucky they are. I've had to limit my fb time or in going to end up saying something I shouldn't, I come here instead. I hate being full of anger its not me.

yeah, really. grief support group meets in hospital? duh.

I've never had to apply for assistance, but I did and was denied because I have to many vehicles. I would have to sell one and I refuse to sell his truck right now.

I'm going to try to refinance to get a lower payment. Having a group at the hospital made no sense to me either I feel better coming here to vent just hate were all here for the same reason.
Thank you all I hope you have a good night.

I came to the conclusion that God had done his work in my husband's life. The scum out there are getting a chance to get right with God. Reminds me of the song "only the good die young" Brian was 47 when he was snatched away...
Rachel

Cat, I'm sorry you werent able to meet up with the support group, just maybe on a day where your out and about, try just driving by the place, and see what feelings flood your heart. Then maybe another time, just drive and park in the parking lot, and just keep getting closer to being inside, each time you go. That is what I did to our favorite eating place, and other places. please don't take this the wrong way. I dont believe at least that my husband was taken, to me he was saved.. From this world of polution, worry, stress, anger, hurt, health problems etc. I have had people tell me this awhile back, and of course that is the last thing you want to hear from someone who clearly has no clue as to what they are talking about, and to be honest I just felt like telling them to go to hel, lol Now though its almost 10 months, and I see and feel as though, I am the one suffering, and sean is not. Just for a minute think about what you go through in a day, do you think he is suffering in heaven? I feel as if my husband left too soon, but it was seans choice to do what he did, knowing the possible risks, he was fixing his truck for our family. I never once blamed him or god in a negative way. It was just a horrific accident. For those who lost their spouses to cancer, to watch your loved one suffer, knowing they would pass away, has to be horrendous. I know life to me, has been about "choices" rather it be our own, or our parents etc... and some things just cant be helped. Lasting happiness, is kind of a misgnome, because we will all have suffering, I believe for me, it's brought me closer to god. I dont dismay anyone elses faith, but I believe in jesus christ. Just know Cat, that you are thought of, and I hope you hve a peaceful weekend. much love, and big hugs carla

I look at it like this, those people, who are, let's say for laments terms, deemed "bad", or not deserving of heaven, are still here. I tend to look at it like this, they must stay on this forsaken earth, to live out their lives in constant, suffering, worry ,stress, health issues etc, while they learn the lessons they are to learn before they can leave this earth. I dont think god takes anyone, we make our own choices, on how our lives will turn out or end up. Rather it's by our own free will, or someone elses, or our parents, etc... Life to me is about choices, so I chose life over a physical death while still on this earth. So even though I grieve, I also smile, laugh, and try to be helpful to others. Your happiness lies within you, it;s there, because believe it or not, you bring joy to all of us, who you communicate with and help, it just may take a bit longer for you to feel or sense it. Much love and big hugs, carla