Whatever crisis or series of them I have been through seem to be slowly ending, the job in Montvale is not that bad and it seems a base to build on. Now I look back at those days in November when I was newly unemployed and in panic/suicide mode - much of it is discovery of one's true strengths and drive, and joining this groupwas very instrumental in those dark days. I am forever changed by the past 3 months of job hunt and financial panic, but seems better now.