baileyolson
Status: Loved ones may depart this earthly plain but will never leave our hearts.
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- I want to share a message of encouragement and strength that a friend of mine, Carol Greathouse, wrote. I found it inspiring and encouraging.For the last 8 years I've mostly lived alone for the first time in my life; During those years, I already...
- That I started life again. I am nearly 9 months out and have been in free fall most of those months. There have been yourselveswns but mainly I have just ridden the currents of grief. That changed today. At least for today. I started working for the...
- Good morning my friendsMy life has been blessed by 4 young men who have became my chosen grandsons. They are life long buddies that moved to my state. They have each lived in my home when they moved here unto they found jobs and places of their...
- Like so many of you, I have had a really hard time sleeping. I can only sleep after I am totally exhausted. This mean I seldom even try to go to sleep before 3:00 am. And when i do go to bed my mind races. I feel like my head is a popcorn popper...
- Hi friends, some of you may know me from the Widows and Widower board. I have been visiting this faith board for a few months and just never posted. Tonight however v I feel compelled to share my story here.I lost my dear husband of 40 years in...
- Ok friends, I finally got the courage. I made the call to the agency and had a new job waiting for me. I go in Wednesday afternoon to fill out the paperwork and get my assignment. I start providing respite care next week. I told them I feel a...
- I made my first trip without him. I was so errors and emotional that I didn't pack until an hour before I left. I had arranged for all the couples we were seeing to meet yesterday evening and to have dinner together. Everyone was there except my...
- I'm at 7 1/2 months out and usually feel I am slowly moving forward. I still feel hollow and life will never be the same, but I'm doing more and getting out of my house more. That said, I'm taking an overnight trip out of town tomorrow. I haven't...
- This week when I did my grocery shopping I had peanut butter on my list. That's my breakfast. A slice of toast with peanut butter and coffee. My Big Swede preferred creamy. I like crunchy. I have always bought creamy because to please him made me...
- I just hung up from a debt collection call. The lady was very kind but that didn't change the outcome. The hospital and Drs have turned my husbands bills over to collections. I am panicking. Having trouble breathing and quite nauseous. He had no...
- Does anyone feel the thunderous and empty silence we live with? Days go by where I don't speak. I am reaching a point where I can find comfort in solitude, but I so miss having that special person to verbally share my day with. To turn to, when a...
- I haven't posted for a while but have been nearly everyday. I used to return many times each day. I guess I am spending more time living.I passed the 6 month mark. (I refuse to call it an anniversary. The word connotes celebration to me.) I spent...
- I'm coming to you all for guidance again. I have too much time on my hands and too little motivation to do anything about it.Back story, we both were retired and planned to "snowbird" winters and to travel north in the heat of summers. We made an...
- This evening thought to myself, "well, one more weekend done." Then it occurred to me what did I mean by that? It felt like I was crossing off days, waiting. Waiting for what? As a child I would cross off days till Christmas, for birthdays, the...
- Ok guys, I took a big (for me) step today. I'm at 5 months and have been sheltering in. I have only left my house. 1 or 2 times a month since my Big Swede left this earth. I have had no disregard or tolerance for being out in the community. Well,...