alantm
Status: just lost ...looked a lot..and no paths ..im lost
Mood:
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still no work things have ran their coarse i do have suicidal thoughts but not real ones.i just think god if i could just get out need to see the door way
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alone really ,my work has become outdated ,i have a very poor incomeright now its all out going had a bad couple of months with the person im seeingshe is bullying in waysi dont like it and when i...
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i have felt like cutting myself as punishment for being a fuck up sleeping under light weight blankets is very stressful to me
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not good life i thought would build upits almost like every day its coming down
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just read a few of my posts from a year ago its all the same feelings .its made me feel more hopeless also noticed replys from journal readerthat i didnt seethanks but i do feel realy down...
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back here because things aregoing wrong im at odds with everyone and work is deadto be honest i do think about self harmand i dont sleap well a lot of people dont carecant talk about it i just...
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what the fuck do i wantwhy have i always been so lost
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last night was one of thoughs dreams that you would swap for real llfe
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dreamt about louisefirst time in a long long timeall of it was welcome but not real ive been in a destroyed state for 3 days i wanted to be there it was ideal a few events triggered this dream...
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at a bit of a loss im in life but not part of it.i have no place in itstill bad dreamsand i care littlealso feel uncared for
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getting upset at times too easynot on great ground lots of changespeople i cared about have walked relationships still hardand im still secreative
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not sure if im ill my right side feels coldlike its in a draft but all the timeeven last night in a hot bed i was cold on that side mostlybeen like it for days .....any ideas ???
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not joining the SI groupsf ck that yip not ,feeling great about my outside self
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my outside self is creeping me outi feel it needs a slap or something not good
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just got a reply from a heart felt letter to hersaying that i do care about her the reply it was all to do with workshe blanked all the emotions in it i hoped for some recognitionbut no i think im...
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