butterfly000

Well, was not locked up... and the label I got was PTSD thats really funny. So MAYBE NOW my doctor will listen to me... could have saved people a lot of time if she would have just listened to me...

Yesterday I vented to a friend and to my shock she told me that she wants nothing to do with me because I am depressed.. Yes that was her words... Yet when she was having her low times I stood by her...

Well the last few days have been really crappy. Only the one would have been but when I went onto see my social worker it made me so upset that it made me down back down to my lowest point.Then today...

Well last few days have not really slept much... So feeling pretty drained but when I should be going to sleep I am just not able to. By the time I want to sleep I am unable to as its morning or will...

Well last time I was meeting with my social worker I opened up and told her that I was thinking about suicide... I have a plan and a day and what I need to complete it.. However its a feeling that I...

I was out at a dollar store and came across their books I thought how good could they be. I found one that jumped out at me. "It's not your fault" I thought humm read the back cover and went really...

Well, the medication the doctor gave me to try does not work, only makes me dizzy and have a horrible headache. So getting just a couple hours sleep. Early this morning when I finally got to sleep I...

Really starting to think about everything that has happened in my life, and with wonder about things, I know that I am stronger for living through it. Have more understand then some, and try and help...

So I went to the doctor today for a follow up as every week I needed to go she was not there so I saw different doctors. I got different meds each time, then finally I get stuff that helps and I go...

Well my morning and most of my early after noon was great until I got this phone call. I didnt know who it was so I just left it.They left a voice mail so went to listen to it and found I knew that...

Well I am feeling alot better today. I am finally in an ok mood!!! YAY! very tired though. Was on call last night for people that where wanting to self harm there where alot of people, which is ok...

Well I am feeling a little better today. still really hurt from having to tell that little kid that she was not getting the dog.. I feel really bad even though its not my fault.I really feel alone...

To give information before I say what has made me so upset.I got myself a dog a year after my aunt went and sold my first dog without telling me. I had no control over that she was a show dog and my...

Well I have noticed a couple things in my life that send me in the direction of wanting to just hang the gloves up. So I started thinking more about what I can control and what I can do to help...

I have always wondered about what my life was like was really right as a kid. I told myself that I would be different and would be the odd one out. And I was very confused, on how I was told it was...