feeling better

Well I am feeling a little better today. still really hurt from having to tell that little kid that she was not getting the dog.. I feel really bad even though its not my fault.
I really feel alone even though I am not really alone, I would like to talk to my friends but right now we have nothing to really talk about,I am just not interested in what I once was.. which really makes talking hard...
I want to vent to a friend, but I have mixed feelings, she says she understands and cares, and I trust that. But when I start venting she sometimes wont answer or not respond with anything that helps... Which makes me wish that I never said anything. Then at times I just want to vent I start then right away am saying sorry and that I want her to forget what I said..
I just feel like this is the only place I can really talk and not be trying to take it back or feel that I am bugging anyone with my problems..