Pissed right off.
To give information before I say what has made me so upset.
I got myself a dog a year after my aunt went and sold my first dog without telling me. I had no control over that she was a show dog and my aunt gave her to me and I had no rights over the dog... So a year later I look for a dog, one that I could run with and would help me by making me want to get up on days I rather be in a hole.
So during the summer I got my puppy Radar, and he has been my baby boy. He gives the second best hugs and great kisses and is a dork and makes me laugh, but most important is making me have to do things and he is cheering me up when I am crying and upset, and just wanting to lay down and die. during the summer I was staying at my parents.. My mom and step dad. My step dad was away at work in china so I got the puppy and took him home. In sept I went back to school, and so did my baby, now we are back living with them and my mom does not mind him but he is big so she is not a huge fan of him bc of his power and she thinks he will knock her over...
My step dad however is back and he is a fucking dick (this is where I get pissed) He daily tells me I need to get rid of that dog, calling him a monster, and saying that he will open the door and let the dog out to be hit by a car. I know he wont go near him as he is scared of the dog. And I am glad bc that gives me a little safe place. My puppy who is 9 months lab mix has to stay downstairs, but he does not mind, he has his own bedroom.
After every day of hearing I need to get rid of the dog and the threats that he was going to taser my dog and was going to let him out to be hit or take him out in the middle of the 401 and let him out.. and the daily fighting about it, today was the lowest. He came home from work and there was a man and a young kid behind and he said I found someone to take the mutt and they are here to pick him up.
They thought they were going to pick up Radar and take him home. I one felt hurt that he would go that low, and then two he has no right to do that its not his dog, and three that I had to tell them I am sorry but there is no dog for them and to see the little girl cry that she was not getting the dog...
I am hurt and pissed and all I want to do right now is go and punch my step dad in the face over and over until he is dead!
I have no idea what is wrong with me, why I am getting that thought, I know I am hurting but it scares me that I want to kill him for this, and just want to smash his head in...
help...
I got myself a dog a year after my aunt went and sold my first dog without telling me. I had no control over that she was a show dog and my aunt gave her to me and I had no rights over the dog... So a year later I look for a dog, one that I could run with and would help me by making me want to get up on days I rather be in a hole.
So during the summer I got my puppy Radar, and he has been my baby boy. He gives the second best hugs and great kisses and is a dork and makes me laugh, but most important is making me have to do things and he is cheering me up when I am crying and upset, and just wanting to lay down and die. during the summer I was staying at my parents.. My mom and step dad. My step dad was away at work in china so I got the puppy and took him home. In sept I went back to school, and so did my baby, now we are back living with them and my mom does not mind him but he is big so she is not a huge fan of him bc of his power and she thinks he will knock her over...
My step dad however is back and he is a fucking dick (this is where I get pissed) He daily tells me I need to get rid of that dog, calling him a monster, and saying that he will open the door and let the dog out to be hit by a car. I know he wont go near him as he is scared of the dog. And I am glad bc that gives me a little safe place. My puppy who is 9 months lab mix has to stay downstairs, but he does not mind, he has his own bedroom.
After every day of hearing I need to get rid of the dog and the threats that he was going to taser my dog and was going to let him out to be hit or take him out in the middle of the 401 and let him out.. and the daily fighting about it, today was the lowest. He came home from work and there was a man and a young kid behind and he said I found someone to take the mutt and they are here to pick him up.
They thought they were going to pick up Radar and take him home. I one felt hurt that he would go that low, and then two he has no right to do that its not his dog, and three that I had to tell them I am sorry but there is no dog for them and to see the little girl cry that she was not getting the dog...
I am hurt and pissed and all I want to do right now is go and punch my step dad in the face over and over until he is dead!
I have no idea what is wrong with me, why I am getting that thought, I know I am hurting but it scares me that I want to kill him for this, and just want to smash his head in...
help...
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