LizzieBarker

I've been up and down for the last few months with only a few moments of clarity. Three weeks ago, I was considering suicide and was distracting myself by working ridiculously hard. Two weeks ago,...

It has been a while. I am numb. Everything is going so right, but I just don't feel anything. I was away last week and everyone was having a great time, I was taking part but it was as though I was...

I just got back from my holiday. What can I say? It was the best time I've ever had. I'm so relaxed when I'm out there that I'm seriously considering leaving everything behind and going out there to...

So I like having our bedroom as a place that only my mr and I can go into. Now I've been told that someone is going to be sleeping in my bed instead of me the night before we go on holiday. My mr...

I'm back to binging. I can't take all of the criticism from my mr and his dad. I just want to fade into nothingness.

I watched a film last night called "The perks of being a wallflower". I can normally cope with things to do with sexual abuse but it caught me at a time when I wasn't expecting it, and given that my...

I am about to have a meltdown. I need to run, stop eating as much as I can. Do as much as I can to not be the way I am. Everything is a reminder,  I see a skinny person and want to be like them. I...

I've been so strong lately, dealing with a lot of my colleagues leaving and taking on their workload. On top of this, I've been dealing with a project that has been going wrong, and the customers...

*TW*So again, the probing questions started yesterday with a friend I haven't seen in a while. Someone mentioned how they were 7 stone when they got married. This was back in the days when there...

So I spent yesterday in absolute agony emotionally. I spent it crying my heart out. A single thing didn't set it off, but several months of rejection and doing things wrong did. I've spent the last...

One thing that really stresses me out is that people constantly hint that I need to put weight on. I'm not underweight and I just seem to carry it well. It all goes to my arms (giving me bingo wings,...

I just watched a very good season finale of one of my shows. It's called "My mad fat diary" and they brought up a very good point. If you had a friend, and she was obviously insecure about her...

It's amazing how my day differs when I'm on my own. Everything seems to be followed with a step on the scales. I don't want to wash my hands after going to the toilet, until I've weighed myself, just...

I have been so up and down lately that it's ridiculous. Music seems to help. Having a positive song on while I work seems to cheer me up, and songs about never giving up seem to give me some of my...

Today's song. Never give up, keep on trying. Hopefully I can do this.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u7Rqf9Qq06M