I am about to have a meltdown. I need to run, stop eating as much as I can. Do as much as I can to not be the way I am. Everything is a reminder, I see a skinny person and want to be like them. I see a larger person and want to do anything to avoid it. Then I feel like a bitch for thinking people are fat and that I'd do anything not to be that way.
All I know is I need to let some of this go. Even if I passed out yesterday, I've got to go running.
All I know is I need to let some of this go. Even if I passed out yesterday, I've got to go running.
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Oh honey is there someone who could go w/ you to make sureyou\'re ok? Or could you go to a gym? Or at least tell someone where you\'re going just in case. Please be safe. Take Care and God Bless you (((( hugs))))
I used to go to the gym with people. It helped me to know that when they stopped I would have to too, and if anything went wrong, they were there. They\'ve all stopped going to the gym now though, so it\'s just me.
Feeling a little better today, helped by a little exercise and less food. Thanks for caring ((hugs))