I just got back from my holiday. What can I say? It was the best time I've ever had. I'm so relaxed when I'm out there that I'm seriously considering leaving everything behind and going out there to work for a few months. I feel like a whole different person over there. I'm relaxed, cool tempered, nothing bothers me. I wish I could be like that all the time. I also had a serious think about whether my mr and I should be together. I've been having second thoughts for a while. Is this normal when engaged? I know of someone who is far better suited to me, and I to him. My current relationship is so secure though, I know he will always be here. At the same time though,  I have changed a lot since we met. I've grown and he hasn't. This needs a lot of thought.