graciepie68

A quick check in. I must try to write everyday. I've gotten lazy and a bit unfocused. Reset!!!!! I can really only type on my iPhone, which is really annoying. No computer at home and I don't have...

I can't wait to get out of work so I can let the pain out that I am holding in today.  I'm so mad at myself. 

Well, I slipped yesterday.,I'm not beating myself up too bad. So that's good. I know I'll get right back on the horse. I'm just mad because I had 97 days or something. I went away over night to a bed...

OMG..... It really really pisses me off that my ex does not answer his phone, or texts. I can see ignoring me, but when the kids try and reach him they can't. My daughter is always saying to him,...

If someone told me 90 days ago I would be sober today, there is no way I would have believed it. I am so grateful, proud of myself, happy and at peace. Words cannot describe how utterly amazing it is...

I love looking back at my journal writings. To remember the harder days and to see how far I've come. Feeling strong. Most importantly, is my commitment to me. Putting me and my needs first....

I really do feel like I have been run over.  My lovely 19 yo and has been calling me to vent.  3x yesterday and once today.  He has so much anger and anxiety.  So when he is venting, it's INTENSE...

Beautiful bright chilly morning.  Fall colors are electric.  I had a beautiful woman's circle at my house last night.  I built a great fire and we sat out there for almost 3 hours.  The fire...

I physically feel ill. I have a headache and I'm starving. My stomach is used to alit of food and wants more. Feed me Seymour! I'm going for a run at 8, even though it's raining. I have to have a...

On my third movie. I barely did anything today. Certainly not what I had hoped. Ate like shot and will probably continue. I feel like I do after I have gotten drunk but I haven't had a drop in 76...

Gotta get going. Watched a couple shows this am; still on the couch. I want to be productive, but not feeling it. There is always way too much to do. Today is the wedding. I have to go get my...

haha my last post I'm dropping F'bombs and wanting to pig out.  It's all about momentum for me and remembering that every feeling, every impulse is momentary and everything passes.  One day I can...

All I want to do is stuff my face, pig out and eat, eat, eat!

Yup that's how I feel.  Trying to make sense of it all.  The kids are shocked the wedding is in 8 days... they are expected to go to Boston for the ceremony and their dad is presenting himself as...

Divorce final this past March. Learned this week my ex is getting married next weekend. Whatever. I congratulated him. Told him I hope he was happy. Even though I left, there is still a process left...