Wasted day
On my third movie. I barely did anything today. Certainly not what I had hoped. Ate like shot and will probably continue. I feel like I do after I have gotten drunk but I haven't had a drop in 76 days. I'm being hard on myself and beating myself up. For what? Laying around and feeling unmotivated? For filling my face? For just feeling off? I don't even know if it's because of this day. I guess it is because I just broke down in tears. All the shit of the past two years coming to a head in a closure type a way. It still hurts. As I write this my ex husband after 21 years of marriage is now remarried. I didn't think I would be this upset. I wonder how my children are feeling in this very moment as their father sends them off for dinner on their own because the fancy restaurant couldn't accommodate my sons girlfriend. The only way he would go. All I know is I feel pretty low right now.
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Hugs! I think you are behaving quite normal. Better even because your not drinking. This is a big deal. Your emotions. Feel them through. Eat up. You can work out tomorrow. Cry if you need to. Try & find a funny chick flick to watch. Girl power!
Totally normal for you to feel low right now. Just go with it. The more you try to fight it the longer it will last.... Then start looking after YOU! Getting a diet and fitness program does wonders. Good luck and stay strong. So what if you feel you wasted a day. The feeling will pass and then you can get back on your pony and ride ride ride.
Thanks my fiend. I appreciate it. I\'ll be alright. Tomorrow is a new day. Xo
I like the fat fingers crack... I\'m gonna have fat fingers if I keep eating like shit
Yes wS a good crack