MMP1
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- Hello all, been a while since I've posted anything. I have good news. I've been fairly stable. But the best news is that I joined the Kairos Prison Ministry and it's helping me heal from my repeat experiences in jail. I was so traumatized by...
- Ok, this is going to be a long rant. My parents divorced when I was 11 and my dad raised me. Both parents were very abusive to me and hostile towards each other (with me caught in the middle) till they died five years ago. When I was 18 my dad...
- i haven't been on in a while (partly because I hate this new webste). This past November I really struggled with suicidal thoughts and I had the pills to do it - the only thing that stopped me was thinking about what would happen to my cats if I...
- Recently my pdoc suggested shock therapy for my depression. My depressive episodes last 2-3 years between severe manic episodes. Past pdocs have also recommended shock therapy. Antidepressants are ineffective on me, and having Bipolar 1, I have to...
- So I go to my fourth new pdoc in two years. My original pdoc died. Been having trouble getting one that took my insurance but this one did and he had good patient reviews online. I was having a little anxiety because each new doctor makes me relive...
- In the past, Autumn made me happy. I've noticed the last 3 years my depression gets worse in the Autumn now. This year is particularly bad. I was in a car accident in August and have had daily headaches since. The pain is wearing me down despite...
- I've been on resperdal for years now but my psychiatrist is concerned because my prolactin levels are too high and I run the risk of breast cancer staying on resperdal. He wants me to consider taking Zyprexa or Latuda. I'm terrified of a med change...
- Well I survived the withdrawal. The brain shocks. The crying spells. The vivid dreams. Effexor is officially out of my system. Well, I get a random "shock" every once in a while, but it's all most gone. And you know what? I feel more normal...
- I've been on Effexor for 3 years now. I was on 300mg of it and cut back to 150mg about a year ago. I want off it because I don't think it works. The withdrawals are horrible. Any advice?
- I joined a weekly game club and a monthly book club. I haven't socialized outside of immediate family in over 3 years. Today is my first game club meeting and I'm getting physically sick to my stomach thinking about meeting people and socializing...
- Ok, I know it sounds stupid. But I've never been able to find the middle ground with my illness. Either I'm manic psychotic or crippling depressed.For the past 3 years I've been crippling depressed. Barely able to get out of bed. Not taking...
- I had a friend I had met at a DBSA group. She was the only girlfriend I had. We typically texted everyday and would get together maybe once or twice a month. I have known her for 3 years. She's BP 2 where I'm BP 1.Well about 2 months ago we were...
- Up until the age of 40 I had a fairly normal life. I had a career I loved. A husband I loved. Friends I loved. Then in 2005 I had a manic psychotic episode that landed me in jail/hospital and I lost everything. I scared off my husband. I scared off...
- Up until the age of 40 I had a fairly normal life. I had a career I loved. A husband I loved. Friends I loved. Then in 2005 I had a manic psychotic episode that landed me in jail/hospital and I lost everything. I scared off my husband. I...
- One of my more embarrassing manic moments happened when I was first diagnosed. My husband didn't pay the garbage bill. I got mad, dumped all the trash in his flat bed trailer, poured diesel on it and set it on fire. When the police showed up they...