hi, just try to hang in there while the meds kick in - talk to us.

Welcome back, MMP. Been a while since I have heard grumbles about the changeover. The site may be different, but the comaradarie is still the same. Hugs you shall have.

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Hope you can hold steady with the changes and remember that you are not alone. Do, do talk to us.

Welcome back MMP

Yes the new site is imperfect in many ways but many good people hang out here...
Sorry you have been so low...time for a medication tweak?
In any event ((((hugs)))) glad you made it back....welcome!

Big hug for you sweetie.... I am so sorry that you're struggling but I'm glad that you're here.... It does often take some time for meds to adjust and sometimes a couple of adjustments .... You will find stability again..... Another hug and a blessing......xo

Hugs for free! I bug strangers sometimes just to shake things up, especially if they look like they could use it. I always ask first

Welcome back. Yes loneliness is difficult. I bet you are glad you have your cats. Maybe you can get some non judgemental interaction here at least. Good luck.

Thanks everybody.

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Glad you are back and glad you have those wonderful cats to help with the loneliness. I know how hard it is to feel that way but I believe you can get past it. Give your meds time to work and help you adjust. Keep coming here and talk to us...we all care very much!!

More hugs today.
Thank your kitties for me.
Keep seeking companions. Let me know what really works please

Hugs to you. I just wanna say that we have an illness. The suicidal thoughts may come and go for the rest of your life but you can learn to fight them. Therapy has been immensly helpful to me and so has being here. This is a battle but you can do it.

Bit analogous here, but part of my beliefs.
I'm finding bp to be temporary tides in the pool of our lives. They will happen, but clarity to see the bottom will come. The chitta must and can be better controlled with both effort and patience, but external energies that we can't control will throw a rock in occasionally. It's up to us to let the waters calm and be clear again.

Hi, MMP!! I can so relate with what you are saying. The cats, the loneliness. And the suicidality and PTSD. That experience is not the same for everybody. Mine have become a part of my everyday life. Always on the back burner, and I never can tell when it's going to boil over. One thing that has helped me is to learn to remember in the moment if I can, that even if the urges are severe, it will at some point recede again. Even if that may take a long time. I have also learned to think of it as an enemy or foe that I wrestle with rather than something that is crippling me and taking over my life. Although that is also true, the former thought takes a stance of power and control, while the latter takes a stance of helplessness and hopelessness. If I said that right. I can never remember which is "former" and which is "latter".

I also have seasonal affective disorder. So the winter months are particularly difficult for me. Not to mention the extra helping of holiday stress. Now that there has been a turnover of a new year, the sun is out longer, the bulbs are pushing up new leaves, and the birds are back, it gives me a new refreshment of life also. And now that I'm middle aged and plaugued with various life-impeding illnesses, each year gets easier and easier to let go of all the goals and project deadlines I had last year and accept that I now have a new year to work on them again. There's always going to be goals and projects ahead of me. And new ones I want to get done as well. Accepting that I am now middle aged and my myriad of problems, and that I can't do as much as fast as I used to, has forced me to slow down. Which I didn't like at first, but now I have a greater understanding of my limited capacities. And I have more compassion for others, knowing that they have their own struggles to deal with that I know nothing about.

Ok, this is turning into a book so I'm going to copy and paste it into a new journal entry.

So here's what you asked for in the first place.... ((( HUGZZ ))), ((( HUGZZ ))), ((( HUGZZ ))), and more ((( HUGZZ )))!!!!!