taking lunch

just want to update the journal here.  Right now I like my supervisor, the new one.  I have been on a steady good path for a few months now, with some interuptions in between, but nothing that has led me to feel suicidle, so that is a good thing.  New things since my last post.  Well a worker i liked personally came here from Wilkes County, my old Agency where I worked for 8 years, and lasted about 2 months, or maybe more like 6 weeks.  She is not a very good Social Worker, but she is a very good friend.  ( I need to text her and see what she's doing this weekend, but I've left my phone at home.)  I was dissappointed when she left, and that has affected my communication with the next Wilkes county worker who wants to come here, and is being overboard with the whole trying to be my best buddy.  I've both lost and gained weight, I am at 165 now.  not a happy place for me. I was sick for several months, like constantly sick, having my period every 2 weeks and where I started out with 97 sick hours that were transferred from Wilkes, I now have 45.  Not counting all the comp time I earned and used.  I'm in dire need of coffee today.  I got up early this morning to go work out, I mean I really had to force myself out of bed, ( 20 minutes after the alarm) and now I am exhausted and have been that way since 9am.  I plan to go to the pool tomorrow and swim laps. I tried this new diet called "naturally slim" where they encourage you to eat whatever you want, but to wait till you're at a level 3 hunger, and then to eat very slowly so that you feel full before you over do it.  THIS DIET SUCKS ASS.  I have gained 4 pounds since I started, and yes I am following the fucking rules.  I am going back to dieting the way I am familiar with,  not eating exactly what I want, lower calorie foods, and higher fiber and protien.  I will still use the slow eating shit though, maybe it will help.  also the orange juice mixed with water is helpful.  I took a diet pill today to help with my viracious appetite.  that's my problem, I get fucking hungry.