A New start

Well, it has been a long time since I've been on DS and right now I thought I'd put an Avitar on instead of my kitties - just for a change - - -and a new start!I've been on a roller coaster ride in the last 6 months or so and I'd like to make a fresh start. I miss my friends on here and realize yet AGAIN that I have to get back on a positive track.  You can't straddle the fence with this addiction and I think that is what I was trying to do - it's a total commitment and I guess for a while I thought I was ready, but I wasn't; I was kidding myself.  Anyway, I'm back.  One day at a time... I'm pretty distressed with myself right now and it's hard to say I like the me I have been. Time for CHANGE.Hello to everyone & hope you're all doing well - - - Smokeygirl