Fighting through . . . . . .

Today is better than yesterday and the day before!  I feel less ashamed and bad about myself than I did after the weekend. . . I know that staying away hour by hour, day by day is the ONLY way to get rid of this pain, but I have to remember when the pain is gone how horrible I felt going back.  That's the one thing that tends to happen to me, and I'm sure many others - - - - the big pain goes away with some time and then you forget all the horrible things about this addiction, the casinos, and the whole environment.... we let the really bad stuff slip out of our memories and go back, again with the rose-colored glasses on thinking things are going to be different.  It's time I woke up and stopped kidding myself - this is getting very old. :]
Just for today - I WILL NOT GAMBLE!  I will feel good about me & my life without gambling.
Smokeygirl