Have to accept reality

Unfortunately, I have to accept reality - reality is that I can't gamble in a controlled way - - - - this is just one of those things I have to TOTALLY STAY AWAY FROM and I know that logically; I think when you go through your whole life being in control of yourself and your career, and you've been somewhat successful, you feel like you can handle anything. But - - - -then you find out that guess what - you CAN'T handle this one... I guess I just didn't want to admit to myself that I can't handle it... I truly can't and need to/must stay completely away from it.  There are worse things I guess (I know) that could happen to someone...
Okay - chin up and moving into tomorrow already, with a new attitude.  I've done it before and I"ll do it again - - - - - will stay away and build on the good and fun things I do when not gambling. It really is a better life, I know and I'm switching back into my mode of one day at a time.
ugh - - - - part of this grueling process we are all going through.....