3 years
Three years flash by in the blink of an eye. I remember those days so well. I was so happy and now i think about killing myself every day. I carry a blade in the back of my phone case and a lighter in my bra incase the thoughts running through mu mind get too intense. I wish i could take it all back. The fights and arguments. The pain in my chest and whispered goodbyes. I wish i could go back to before i met tanner when i was happy and carefree. I wish i could go back and change things. Never move back to louisiana. Work through things rather than run. But i cant. Everything is different wnd fucked up and im sitting on the bathroom floor at 2 in th afternoon crying my eyes out wondering how everything could have gotten screwed up so badly.
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I'm here if you want to talk.
You are walking through fire, my friend. I think we all have these feelings at some point, I sure did/do! So please, give yourself a little love and willfully push the dark thoughts aside. Be a Jedi and FIGHT those dark forces! Life will come around to a better place.