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- My mind is torn. My body is beyond torn. I think like an anorexic. I think like a bulimic. I think like a binge eater.And I think like someone in recovery. I don't know what to do, and I'm afraid I'm losing my mind and going back to my old ways.
- I'm so fed up. I thought I could eat normally, but that meant overeating. So, I try to eat normally again, and it's under eating and binges. I want to lose this weight, it's insane. I want to stop weighing myself every day, but my day is based on...
- I was visiting the another support group discussion and I found that by searching you can pull up the profile by username. I searched it myself, and I'm like four hits down with all my information available. This upsets me. I don't discuss my...
- May be triggering.So, today I purged for the first time in months. I've been thinking about it, but I didn't think I'd do it. But I did. I walked across campus. Went into the bathroom stall. Put my purse, jacket, and bookbag out of the way, and I...
- How much weight is normal to lose a week? 1-2 lbs? How much exercise is normal? What kind of exercise is a way to not become over obsessed with it? As in compulsive exercising.I'm trying to stick to the meal plan, but I have to lose weight, and I...
- There's an event at my church coming up.. The 30 hour famine. I want to participate and the youth group wants me there as a role model/support kind of thing, but I'm afraid of the anorexia that has been poking at my mind relentlessly lately. Should...
- I know I have issues with eating. And I know that it isn't going to just disappear, but along with the mental issues with tolerating food, I'm experiencing physical difficulties. Nausea at the thought of food, more so when I actually eat it....
- I know what I'm doing to myself. I know that my mind is lying to me about my body. Even twenty-five pounds lighter I felt like a cow. When I was eating next to nothing, a gluttonous pig. I know that I may never see myself normally again, but how do...
- I lived in sweats for two months because I couldn't stand jeans and the feel of the waistline. My boyfriend got fed up and slightly impatient, so I caved. I went out and bought new jeans, a whole size bigger, and it killed me. I feel fat and ugly...
- He has problems and I understand. I do not look down on him or try to change him. But he's very frustrated with himself, which makes the problem worse. Part of the reason he is frustrated is because he feels he isn't adequately pleasuring me. I...
- I don't know what's going on. I was getting better, but felt myself slipping, so I sought help. That didn't help, it made it worse. It's only been a few days, but I'm already counting calories and restricting. I'm looking at things that I know are...
- So, I went to the nutritionist today and we briefly discussed a meal plan. I have a list of what I should eat and how often I should eat. I also have a folderful of informative material and pamphlets. My problem is that she advised me to eat so many...
- I know that an eating disorder is an addiction or an addicting type of behavior. I myself understand that I have an addiction to food, whether I'm in a bulimic phase or anorexic phase.. I've overcome a prescription drug addiction in the past. So, is...
- Well, I guess it's stupid. But why do we look for things, at things, to things that trigger us? We know what our triggers are, yet we do this anyway.. WHY?
- Well, my boyfriend has been all good and supportive. I know we don't mention numbers but he met me when I was in the midst of not eating and manic exercising, so I was quite a bit lighter. Well, I've gained, thought I was recovered, and now realize...