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- Lately, more often than I'd like to admit, I am getting so drunk that I black out. I'm starting to realize the problem.. But I don't want to let go. I think at this point it's an escape. It's an escape from thinking. I'll start with one shot, then...
- I'm in therapy. I'm talking about my problems. The medication that the doctor thinks will benefit me, has seemed to actually benefit me. My weight is rising and I'm freaking out. My anxiety is rising. My depression is rising. My stability is...
- I just talked to my fourteen year old cousin. She told me she's not eating and there's nothing anyone can do to stop her. I told her everything I'd been through. I told her of the consequences and she asked "Is that all?" She told me she'd deal with...
- I went to therapy today for the first time in years. And I felt so torn during the session, but afterwards, it was like a small weight was gone. Sure, it was back ten minutes later, but it was gone.. My question is, for any of you in therapy, does...
- I'm so depressed. I want to curl up in a ball and cry and cry. I want to hurt myself. I want to make myself bleed. I want to starve. I want to vomit. I don't even know what to do anymore. Why do I even care what happens? Where am I even supposed to...
- I'm a binge drinker. I don't drink overly often, but I do drink overly much. I got flat out called an alcoholic today and then tonight a relative suggested they would go to AA with me if I wished it. How is drinking so much but not so often...
- I have an appointment scheduled. To discuss my relapse, to discuss my drinking, to discuss my depression. I'm so scared. I don't know what to do. I was in such a bad place I called a crisis line this morning. Then I starved myself only to make...
- I'm having such a hard time lately. Every time things go wrong, in any way, I want to eat and eat and eat or just not eat at all. I know it's a coping mechanism. I know it's about control. But I don't see another way. Share your tips? Share your...
- Have you ever felt too jaded for life? Like you've been through too much, and you're going to drag someone down with you? I like this guy.. And he's probably exactly what I need. But I can't imagine dragging him into my fucked up life. Part of me...
- So, I met a boy and it was amazing. For a couple of days. We're sort of dating. I like him. He's sweet. He's great. Except for when he's not. He's been clean for just over two months. He is in a bad situation with his family. He doesn't have a job....
- I've been doing, rather badly lately. New environment has a lot to do with it. But I've just been so stressed. Tonight, I cooked dinner and they got home to not eat. I can't eat by myself. I can't eat when I'm mad, I can't eat when I'm depressed, I...
- I'm home alone. I just want to eat, I want to eat to throw up. Then I want to eat again. All for the taste of the food. The taste without the calories. My brain is screaming "What's the harm" after all, it thinks it's only just this once. I don't...
- Chinese, my weakness. I went to pee and automatically, I was ready to vomit. I wanted to so bad. I literally talked to myself the whole time I was in there, out loud. "Just breathe." "It's okay." "It's just food." I counted...
- Right now my mindset is eat a healthy diet. Then it's fuck dieting, anorexia is easier. And then I needed to eat something so I thought fuck anorexia, bulimia wins. I don't know where to go from here and I'm so tired.
- Probably triggering.I haven't weighed myself in a week. I just know I've gained weight. I'm so scared to weigh myself, because then I'll start starving again. But if I don't weigh myself I'll be a fat cow.I've probably purged more lately than I have...