My guess is human nature. We are curious even if we know it could be detrimental to us and I don't think it just goes for our ED's. It's kind of like watching a train wreck, you can't take your eyes away even though you know you want to or that you should.

Good question. It' s one I've asked myself many times. I think what anneL said is probably true.

Not sure why. I do it too. When I recognize it, I try to re-direct my thinking or DO something. (i know, easier said than done)

probably becuz subconsciously its what makes us feel safe----

The true definition of madness is to repeat something over and over again and to expect a different result; I'm off the wall insane :)

i guess in my case i never paid any attention to things that may be a trigger to me ED- not till I can on here-I started to pay more attention to it.

I think its because we're addicts . . . somehow, there's always this vanity and this temptation to test ourselves by facing our triggers.

I have stated outright "I can never never never EVER have even one bite of ice cream; it is to me what a drink is to an alcoholic". My boyfriend had soy ice cream, and I guess I decided that was okay . . . and I had one bite. Didn't b/p that night; he was right there . . . but sure enough, the very next day, I ate his carton of soy ice cream and purged. Then I bought food and b/ped two days in a row. I did not do it yesterday and I haven't done it today, although that bagel creation I made this morning came perilously close. Always testing. Always wanting to believe that I am in control; I hate thinking I'm not in control. But before the stupid soy ice cream slip, I'd been much better for over a month at least, no binging and only a few incidents of purging.

i think we look for things to trigger ourself because thats what our ed wants us to do. the harder you try to not let that trigger get to you the more you think of it.. do you find yourself obsessing over it?? ?

for me i think its so i have an excuse to use ed. cos i'm scared shitless to give it up on some level

i agree with that newyorkgirl