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- I can take the crazy pills and not be a psychotic bitch..or I can get stoned,but be a psychotic bitch some of the time..
- I personally have no experience with meth, but I'm scared. Someone I love confessed to shooting up today and I don't know how to react. She wants to get clean, but I don't know how to help. I don't know where to start or where to end. She may get in...
- I've gained over thirty pounds and I'm feeling terrible. Some days I have to convince myself to eat. I hate this feeling. I hate worrying that I have an imminent relapse just around some hidden corner. I went from overeating, to anorexia, to...
- I've been diagnosed with bipolar disorder for a year. I just recently admitted that I have an alcohol problem. I am in a rehab facility for the first time in my life. It is a wonderfully scary experience. I hope I'm learning each day. So, I have a...
- I feel so hollow. So empty. It's like I don't exist. It's like I don't matter. I'm all alone. I'm so scared of everything. I can't imagine what tomorrow will bring, much less why I'd want to be there. I just want my mom. I want safety. I want...
- All at the same time, I'm depressed, manic, angry inside, confused, facing extreme changes. It's all falling apart at once. I could handle a manic episode, or maybe even get through the depression if it weren't for my lack of job. I could probably...
- Yesterday, my aunt had a beer and I was very proud of myself for glancing at it longingly but not asking for any. Tonight my boyfriend is coming over. It would be so easy to say "Hey, pick me something up." So I want it and I want to avoid the...
- I have been up for four hours. I am so sick at my stomach. But I can't force myself up and into the kitchen to find anything to eat. Not even something small or light in calories or even some healthy safe food. I am incapable of going to eat. I do...
- I've lost a significant amount of weight in the last two weeks. A gleefully significant amount. My aunt's noticed. But I can't seem to make it stop. My therapist wants me to try to get a referral to an ED clinic. They're also trying to stick me...
- I was taking the garbage down to the curb tonight, it wasn't even fully dark yet. And I got halfway down the driveway and froze. I literally could not take another step forward because of the raw terror in the pit of my stomach. I had to come back...
- Someone tell me how to stop this. I want to destroy myself. I want to be so messed up I can't see straight. I want to drink and pop pills and get high. I want to eat everything I see. It's crashing. I'm so close to giving up all over again.
- My cousin has been inpatient twice for severely low weight and is losing weight again. I want to call her, I want to talk to her and see if there is anything I can do. Much more than her family and everyone, I've been through it so I know I can...
- I've suffered from an eating disorder for years and years. I had moved on from the physical, but struggled with the mental. For the most part, I had been okay. After a two week alcohol binge, and many previous signs, I've stopped drinking....
- After a two week alcohol binge, and many previous signs, I've stopped drinking. Completely. And I've noticed that when I stopped drinking, I stopped eating. I think my drinking was to not feel, just like not eating is. Intellectually I know I'm...
- I joined the group. I got the first step toward a referral to a substance abuse group. I'm realizing it, I'm not liking it. And I'm scared. I don't even know if I want to go to a meeting anymore. It's so much out of me. What will be left behind?