A Silly Love Song

Thanks to everyone here who has shown me such caring, it just brings tears to my eyes.I feel like I have been held in loving arms and comforted by the beautiful people here.I am so incredibly grateful for all of you.  The old song "You Light up my Life" comes to mind.... You light up my lifeYou give me strength to carry on..... I wish I could express how much you all mean to me....but I have to say, coming here has saved my life...and continues to save my life. The last few days, I have felt so overwhelmed, so tired, so stressed out....yeah...you guessed it, I just wanted to go gamble.  Badly.  I could see my "favorite" games....I was reliving my best "wins".  I wanted to go numb out and escape.....forget everything else.... But I didn't. I didn't because I have you.  Your support has made all the difference. I have all the wisdom and strength you all have shared with me.  I have the knowledge of how you've felt when you "slipped".  I know it didn't work for you, and it will never work for me, either.  I know if the desire gets too strong, I can come to you for help.  I want you to know that I am here for you in the same way. Just for today, hand-in-hand with my beloved friends here at ds, I will not gamble. Wishing you all joy and strength, Dianne