jamesross
Status: Glad to be with recovery again. it's been a hell of a rough journey getting back, but I do want it very bad this time. I'm just trying.
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I feel terible today. I don't feel myself the last couple of days. I'm angry and depressed. I felt so bad at work that I cried. I miss G very much right now. Not sure if it's because of withdrawel...
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Today just feeling a bit nervouse and stuff. Things are a little still up in the air, but much better now that I'm working again. Last night I made another really good filling meal. Got a whole...
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First day back was a breeze. The people were glad to see me, and that was nice. The Christian lady got fired for pushing one of the other girls. Thats kinda good. She was the one writting down...
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Well, off to my first day back to work. Looking foreward to it, but a little nervous. I'm sure everything will go fine. I feel pretty strong. Yesterday Tim and I had a great dinner. Funny, it...
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Finally going back to work. Yahoo! A little bit nervous, but all set. Got my bus pass for the month, got my hair cut, and I'm getting stronger each day. I don't think the pills are a problem...
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Not feeling good today at all. Had a very hard time getting to sleep last night. Seem to be just consumed with worry. I keep telling myself that it's alright, and things are not as bad as they...
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Well, today is another day. Hopefully better than yesterday. Yesterday was a complete waist of time with Bob. Dan and I got talking while we were at this site, doing nothing of course. Aparently...
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What a bunch of clowns i'm working with. Yesterday the guy takes me to this place to take off wall paper. Why he wanted to, I don't know. One thing I do know that when they have wall paper on...
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Still trying to get my strength back. I find it very hard trying to fight addiction when your run down. Sometimes it takes me a couple of hours just to get myself together in the morning. It's...
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Today was pretty relaxefull at work. I finished most of what needed done at the place. Paul was only supposed to be two hours, but he never got there until seven. Made my day really easy. I kept...
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Yesterday spent the day thinking a lot about everything. Tried just putting the worries aside, and focusing on what I need to do now. I played with Jimmy last night. He loved that. He was so tuckered...
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Well, I'm alright for the time being. I went to the Dr today and told him everything that's going on. Sorry but I just can't afford to be sick right now. I wish I could, and get through this...
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Yesterday was like a day from hell. Started out with a fire in my kitchen. I had the stove on because it's so cold in the morning. My long john's weren't dry completly, so I hung them above the...
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Well, today I have to decide. Am I going down, or do I want to fight. Going down to me is to be dead. I can't go there. I would rather die than do that. So I'm deciding I need to fight. These...
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Feeling so lost lately. I feel like I'm struggling by myself just to keep afloat. Not sure exactly whats going on. sometimes I think it's the weather, and the change of season, other times I...
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