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- My Dad is a wonderful man of God and he always manages to say what is right in any given situation. He is an elder of twenty years in his church and is about to retire from this role as he is nearly eighty now. Please bear with me. I'm not preaching...
- Two years, one month out, I find myself very intolerant of anyone else's feelings. I feel as though I've had enough of everyone else in my life. I've spent two years taking care of our children and grandchildren and their grief. I've dealt with our...
- I read all of it before you shut it down. I'm so sorry you had to deal with that. I hope you ladies are o.k. I suppose this terrible pain brings out the worst in people and I think this horrible attack was fuelled by alcohol. Much love to you...
- I've survived so far. I can't believe how quickly this time has disappeared. It still feels like yesterday since Mike died. All of his stuff needs to go. I need to make a huge effort to accomplish this terrible task. I need to do this to move...
- Is a sad ,lonely sack of shit. I don't want it anymore. I'm sick of just putting one foot in front of the other. I want to feel joy again. I'm sick of hiding my pain and acting like I'm ok. I'm such a fake person these days. I want the person back...
- I've been reading about everyone feeling worse as time goes on and I've never wanted to comment on this topic in case it scared anyone. I've kept my struggle to myself for this reason but I think it doesn't help anyone because as you make your way...
- I feel like going ballistic. In the 18 months since my husband died I have had to deal with more than I ever have in my life. I haven't posted recently because I've had to make sure my family is safe from my meth addicted oldest daughter. I've had...
- As time goes on my adult daughters are opening up to me more and more about the final stages of their Dads illness and the things they witnessed that I wasn't aware of. Although I was Mikes primary carer and was with him the majority of the time I...
- I'm in a really bad place at the moment regarding my oldest daughter. She has had issues with addiction for the last twenty years but my husband always protected me from this. She got clean when he was diagnosed with cancer and was absolutely...
- Finally after 18 months I've had my wedding rings removed. They had to be cut off as they hadn't left my finger in 34 years.The jeweller put them in a little plastic bag for me to take home. Just another part of my former life that is now gone....
- I was going to respond to GLe333 regarding moving on and perhaps dating but my comment was becoming a bit long so decided to share it with everyone. It's been 18 months since my beautiful Michael died and I've been asked out for coffee, lunch etc by...
- My scrambled brain should be recovering by now. Right? 18 months of this crap and I find I'm second guessing myself on every level almost to the point of OCD. What if I spend too much money. What if I give someone the wrong medication at work. What...
- Here I am again playing the songs from the funeral. I imagine every moment in my mind. Wow how did I plan such an awesome gathering. It seemed just like a party,an event. Thanks for coming everyone,so nice to see you. I hope I made my husband proud...
- I think this is what we are all experiencing. I had a really terrible experience which lasted all day about three weeks ago. It went beyond the usual anxiety and the need to vomit. I truly thought I was going to die but didn't have the strength or...
- I'm so over it. I want my husband back. Just to let everyone know, I am Australian and use the word dickhead and bullshit frequently. 17 months of fucking torture. Going to bed soon and I'll take my anti-depressant. At least it helps me to sleep...