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- I get to depressed thanksgiving thru Christmas. I swear. I could really go off on my shirty relationship. About working on average 70 hours a week. About having the weight of the world on my shoulders with 3 kids to care for. But all the complaining...
- I have a problem. I have never been comfortable with intimacy in movies let alone porn. My hubby loves it But what gets me is what he looks at. It's all teen black girls and black lesbians. I'm an older white woman and totally straight. He is black...
- Tired of life. But I know I have to deal. I've made some pretty shitty decisions over last few months. Left my husband of 13 years, left my home, and left two kids. Im beating myself up over that choice I made. With a new man. Another stupid choice....
- I myself am an alcoholic. I am pregnant and not stupid and know I must not drink. I'm miserable however. My significant other drinks daily and I can't help but be upset that I can't. I've expressed my feelings and he says there is a difference...
- I've become so chemical dependant. If I didn't have a drink in my hand I would get my fix elsewhere. I got hooked to the high of benedryl and caffeine together. Now I just took an at home pregnancy test 2 days ago. I already knew I was but that just...
- I'm freaking. I am 31. I got two wonderful beautiful intelligent kids. I recently left their father and he has custody. It's killing me. I barely see my babies because things are so intense between me and their father. I found a new love....
- I left my husband and my kids. I wish I could have brought them but I'm not financially stable and I used common sense. But its nearing Halloween and I hear my kids father isn't even taking them out. I don't have a vehicle. Wish I did I'd make...
- I feel all out of sorts. The day was hard one thing after another. Car wouldn't start had to walk kids to bus stop. Finally got it made it to work, had busy hard day there. I cook and its so frantic. Get off and by this time I'm full of fury. I...
- Every new day is a challenge. Things like a simple trip to get gas for most wouldn't think twice, but for some such a mundane task brings upon dread and fear hours at a time. Watching the needle hitting quarter of a tank. Thinking it'll be okay til...
- I just need to vent. I am extremely depressed. So bad as to I even been having bad thoughts. My mind wonders on how to kill myself lately. I don't think I would try, I tried several times in my adolescence. but not in ten+ years. I'm finding it...
- How in the hell do you reach out and get help when you are too scared to leave your own damn house. Too scared to talk on the phone. What do you do? This illness is garbage. I've missed so much of my life. Went to one school dance maybe in 5th...
- I started taking St Johns wort for depression a week or two ago. My mood has somewhat improved. Although my anxiety has not. all day long I have constant worries my mind is racing my heart feels like its about to beat through my chest.My head...
- Just had a long argument with boyfriend. I am lost. Lately it's damned if I do damned if I don't. This argument broke out because for $20 to help get groceries. But last week we got in an argument because I didn't tell him that we were out of...
- I find it hard sometimes when my boyfriend of 10 year can't deal with my issues. I haveSAD. Today we fought because he wants to get me admitted to the mental hospital. I'm not that depressed at the moment at least until our fight. He had asked me to...
- So I have been having a good couple days. I quit smoking cigarettes, I started jogging for a half hour a day. Been feeling pretty darn good. Wake up today it's Friday yeah. Then my boyfriend tells me he needs me to go to City Hall renew his tag go...