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Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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justmemyselfNi 01/14/2016

Tired of life. But I know I have to deal. I've made some pretty shitty decisions over last few months. Left my husband of 13 years, left my home, and left two kids. Im beating myself up over that choice I made. With a new man. Another stupid choice. Even worse decision I got pregnant. New man is a piece of work, we work together. Last week a girl from work confronted me telling me he been hitting on her and grabbed her ass which I honestly believe happened. I am humiliated, don't want to go to work anymore. I tried to leave him twice last week but never made it out. He acts like nothing happened and its some conspiracy against him. Im heart broken. Furthest from my mind is being intimate with this man, but he keeps trying and is so mad. I want to be shown love and affection. He don't.get it. Just rubs on my pussy wanting sex. I feel like fuck you. If you want someone else go get it. I think he want his cake and want to eat it too. I've gone thru so much pain in the last six months and now feel fat as a cow Prego sex is furthest from my mind. Let alone the new info brought to my attention last week. I got served papers from ex he is trying to get my rights to my children taken and child support enforced. It's been a rocky six months. I been praying and hoping for a better day and they just seem to be getting worse. Pray for me, that I make better decisions. I have no one to blame except myself for my life.

enigmaticloner 01/14/2016

I remember seeing a thread you made a while back about leaving your husband and what not. I don't remember if I said anything in that one, but it's unfortunate to see how things turned out, it seems that things with the new man aren't working well from what you say. You probably already know what you need to do, and you just need to convince yourself to go through with it.

sixtyplus 01/15/2016

Justme. You do not have to be half of a couple to be a whole person. My advice would be to get out of that current relationship; it is only going to get worse. If you cannot afford to live on your own look for a girlfriend or relative you can share expenses with.

Forget about a social life until you get control of yourself.

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WanderingVet 01/15/2016

>>He acts like nothing happened

That will change when he has a child support court order.

Meanwhile, you are making a lot of serious mistakes. Hope you gain control soon. Read your post carefully ... and see where you can regain some control.

Desigol1979 01/15/2016

So, you got Married at 18? Perhaps that's the beginning of truth. Deep Down inside you're still 18!

SingYourGutsOut 01/15/2016

I agree with what everyone else has said. Be hard on yourself and look after yourself and your baby. But not too hard on yourself - we all make mistakes - its what we do after that counts.

Hugs to you

survivor69 01/15/2016

SO SORRY U HAD 2 LEAVE HUN'...............................
GBU
DRENA B
;-O

bridgie101 01/15/2016

What des says is random, but it happened to me: when I broke up with husband after 17 yrs of emotional death, I deteriorated right back to the age I was when I met him, and what's more, to the extent that I couldn't understand who I was looking at in the mirror. I looked so old! What happened? It was a sudden jump.

when we break up with husbands we have an incredible need to restabilise in another relationship. It's a huge need. i'm pretty sure it's darwinian. Are you able to get counselling, or medication that won't hurt the baby, to help you stabilise without having to shackle yourself to this ghastly workmate?

Begogonian 01/15/2016

Who do you have around physically to give you support? To get out and walk and discuss your issues? To give you air to breathe between work and your current relationship. You need space to give you perspective and strength.

Everyone answering here comes from a good place within and that takes experience and found strength. Some of us have gone through low self esteem, confusion out of the mess we are able to create sometimes, and the little steps in looking at ourselves and change our circumstances. So know you are not alone, please.

We have felt defeated so many times because we have given power to others over us just to keep any type of peace. In the course, we just keep being destroyed inside.

I don't know if where you live the community has programs to help you regain your strength and focus. Like a women's group to help you know others you can connect to and have a daily break from the cycle of work and your present home situation.

Try to find resources that are beneficial to you. It seems you are too immersed in negativity that blinds you from discovering the real you.

Take courage, we all care for you.

Big Hug :)

justmemyselfNi 01/15/2016

I really appreciate the comments. I do need counseling. It's a slow process. I was supported thru out last relationship. I've been keeping up with bills since moving out but just had to purchase a car after. It's got me behind. I'm 14 weeks Prego and just got into doc this past week. Getting myself back into therapy is next on the list I did his he ordered parenting classes and mediation thru the courts with my ex which I have to pay for as well. I'm trying to accomplish alot on a minimum wage income. Thank goodness taxes are just around corner I'm getting really overwhelmed lately.

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