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  Posted: 01/30/2017

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  Posted: 02/15/2017

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  lifes at a low

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  Posted: 01/11/2017

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  I am 32. I work 60 hours a week. I been doing this over a year now and it's getting old quick. I have three kids I must help with. Two from previous relationship. Age 12 a boy and age 6 a girl. Also a 6 months old baby in this relationship. I've only been in relationship almost 2 years and feel so neglected. I beg for affection but can't get it. I go to sleep alone and wake up alone. He spends most time when I'm home in living room. He will want to come have sex about midnight most nights come...

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  Posted: 11/29/2016

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  Posted: 11/23/2016

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  holidays are the worst

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  Last Reply: TooMuch 11/24/2016

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  I get to depressed thanksgiving thru Christmas. I swear. I could really go off on my shirty relationship. About working on average 70 hours a week. About having the weight of the world on my shoulders with 3 kids to care for. But all the complaining means nothing. A simple vent that gets me No where. I just wish I was happy. But I'm stressed and lonely. Depressed and going numb. I'm beyond tears. I'm just bitter. 

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  Posted: 09/18/2016

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  killing myself would relieve me

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  Posted: 09/07/2016

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  I hate life. Always have and feel as though I always will. I'm frustrated with my own self. I make terrible choices. I left a good man for an asshole. So stupid. Now we have a one month old baby. This man only wanted a child. Never me. He figures I worked really hard to make money so I was a good candidate. I'm so heart broken though cuz as shotty as I'm treated I still love the stupid fuck. He is obsessed with black girls and I'm white. Even trying to  meds with little high school bitche s at...

• Sex / Pornography Addiction
  

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  Posted: 09/07/2016

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  Posted: 08/24/2016

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  wife of porn addict

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  Last Reply: justmemyselfNi 09/07/2016

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  I have a problem. I have never been comfortable with intimacy in movies let alone porn. My hubby loves it But what gets me is what he looks at. It's all teen black girls and black lesbians. I'm an older white woman and totally straight. He is black and I am his first white woman. It really makes me question if he is even attracted to me at all. There's not much affection at all between us. He sleeps on the couch. We do fuck on occasion but total lack of intimacy. I counted 112 searches in last...

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  Posted: 08/24/2016

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  will i be okay?

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  Posted: 07/20/2016

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  i am no better off then I was months ago. I'm still in custody battle over my two beloved kids with their father. Super depressed still on that subject. I am currently out of work i'm due to have a baby very soon. My boyfriend is still a controlling dick that i cant even get any comfort ar affection from. On the plus side I finally am no longer homeless. I got an apartment with douche bag boyfriend. Although he acts as though its his even though we have done the majority 50/50. Honestly i have...