JoeGo

10pm. Get off work in an hour. As my mother would say "Good night and dont let the bed bugs bite". Heck of a thought to go to sleep by.lol

3pm Back at work. 1st day off was good got outside and messed around. 2nd not to bad either till later in the evening. Awoke yesterday and could not get out of bed heavy pain and mental exhaustion,...

6pm lost again

3pm Back at work. I moved that little smiley guy up to the good position. Now if i can just keep him from backsliding on me.

10pm Loking forward to going home and to bed. If not for the ambin what would i do, I hate ambin. It makes me sick of myself to complain so, i want to help others if i can. I try to at least sent a...

4pm Back at work. Day started out ok, but am droping fast. Hands shakeing, vision blurs, terrible pain, heart racing. How is it that my own journal entry from yesterday were so much brighter. When i...

10pm Still at work. Pain and swelling of hands kicking in again also feel like there trying to close up on there own , funny when i look at my hands sometimes i dont feel like they are mine, lots of...

3Pm Back at work. Not much pain today and the sun is high, I feel alive again. I refuse to go down today, I will not.

9pm beter now, thanks friends

3Pm Back at work. Tired with increased pain in fingers, hands, wrist and anchels.  Tried to talk with my wife abut my depression but she was not much help, i know she cares but I think she has...

4Pm Back at work after a couple of days off. First day off I was a mess, spent most of the day in the bed. Second day was much better actually a fun day spent mostly outside. Then today on a down...

11-24-07 3pm Back at work. Feeling pretty good today. My mind feels sound but not completly clear. Physical pain not  bad, just feel a little weak and shakey but not complaining. Had a long chat...

Will try to address some of the comments made by others to my journai, and want to thank you for the support. "I like to get lost" I think I understand what you mean. I too like to get lost but am...

11-23-07 Back at work. My heart is racing and hands are shaking. I here others voices in the room clearly yet they are digested as dull muffeled tones. My mood bleed over to the wife and now she is...

Just discovered I have not been doing this Journal thing correctly so copied my own mistakenly made "Comments" from the past couple of days here.11-16-07  Pain in hands, wrists and ankles almost...