3Pm Back at work. Tired with increased pain in fingers, hands, wrist and anchels.  Tried to talk with my wife abut my depression but she was not much help, i know she cares but I think she has become somwhat numb to it all. She insisted and I finaly agreed to make apointements with PCP and RA Dr's. Made appointemts for end of december when i week off. At least I will get another vist in before starting a new year of insurance deductiables. Talked to my oldest daughter yesterday for 1st  time in several years. It was very good to talk to her and i love her, but  it has fueled stired anouther round of depression.