11-23-07 Back at work. My heart is racing and hands are shaking. I here others voices in the room clearly yet they are digested as dull muffeled tones. My mood bleed over to the wife and now she is upset with me again. She is the only thing that has keep me going but at the same time........ I put on a face at work as best I can but I know the truth bleeds through. Physical pain is bad but I would trade an ouncs of mental instability for a boat load of pain.