WantToFight

I have gotten some amazing responses to my advice post. I am particularly grateful to one person, and I think I am going to go to therapy with my dad. I can't face him in any unsupervised/unmediated...

I hate the job I have got. Yesterday, I kept breaking down at my desk and I had to wipe my face 342342 times and go to the bathroom.I am being used/paid too little for what I do. First, I need to...

Things are tough. I know what will happen if I give up: I've done it before, more than once. I've given up more than once when things have been tough. I don't know what it looks like when I don't...

I wish I believed in God. Maybe I've died and come to hell. That's where I would go if God were judging me. Everything hurts. Moving hurts, sitting hurts, lying down hurts. It's akin to scratching...

I've been off of cipralex for a few weeks because it makes me sleep so much and I need to try to complete school work. It was okay at first, and I was excited because I thought the twice weekly...

I feel sober today. It took a whole lot of alcohol last night to sober me up for this morning. I couldn't cry enough tears in this lifetime for the remorse I feel over the way I have treated my...

I'd like to be buried forever so I can reflect in peace and sleep in peace and cuddle with a blanket forever in the safety of my casket. I'm sure I would never like to come out. I would want my cat...

I guess the fact that I have reasoned with myself to stay alive in the last several weeks makes me realize that I am against suicide. And I am proud of myself for that, and I think it's a good thing....

I think I'm pretending to be sick, I honestly do. I think I could wake up tomorrow morning and be completely all right and never look back and never know what happened or what I thought before. I was...

I am about to call one of my friends from school and tell her what has been going on with me. I have not told anyone. Not my cousin, my mom, my closer friends (roommates, anyone from high school),...

I feel like suicide is my destiny or something... Nobody understands me maybe because people who are as emotionally weak and messy as me never make it to tell; they die or kill themselves. I'm not...

My brain won't stop working. I woke up shouting for my mother. It's 4 a.m. and I went to bed at 2 a.m. I'm having slightly psychotic thoughts. Thinking what if I am a devil and people stop breathing...

I am not doing this anymore....I am throwing away all of my drugs... and the vodka and taking away the pain killersI can't be on all kinds of drugs anymore.Tylenol helps with anxiety like nothing...

I am trying to reframe my situation and feel a different way than I am tempted to feel.I am tempted to feel defeated, ashamed, to feel devastated and embarrassed, and to go to sleep for the next...

I told my mom about my suicide plan. It felt so good to talk about it. I've been planning and thinking about it for so long but hadn't told anyone until now. It felt so good and real to talk about...