LornaR

Happy and anxious really. I definitely feel manic. Oh dear. And it is so fun once again. How do I let this happen? Why does this happen? Well it's 1 AM so I best go to bed. Haven't slept over 6 hours...

Don't need much sleep right now. Interesting, I feel so good. I abstained from my eating disorder for 2 days and ate lots of veggies and brown rice. I've been drinking kombucha and taking samE. But...

All in all I'm doing pretty good still. I guess I'm doing better than I think I am.

When I answer posts I always feel anxious. I did get attacked on here once but that was a long time ago and the outcome made us all grow. But I still, I think it's cause I really care you know?Man...

I was reading posts in hear and the other BP site, sex, sex, sex. Oh what a distraction and a fun one at that. That is how we are, distracted and looking for a distraction. When you finally let go of...

I Can All that time spent thinking of death and dying Somewhere deep inside my body sighing Haven't I thought this all out before? Still I convince myself I can't take anymore  Useless days...

I'm doing okay. I'm not looking to make it "better". I'm just looking to stay sane and I think I'm on the right track. I've been pretty even the last couple of days. Of course I know it's going to...

I'm still mad about my latest trial with medication. Everywhere I read that this is what I have to do. I can not stand one more failed course of treatment. Getting back to normal is just too mother...

I read the posts from time to time but rarely do I respond. I just read one from a girl who's way "out there" and it's sad. We are so fucking self obsessed. I actually love getting out of it. That...

I keep trying to live like I'm like everybody else. My sponsor in AA read right out of the Big Book "Nobody likes to admit that he is bodily and mentally different than his fellows. Many will try to...

I was just reading and it sounds like I only took seroquel for a month. That's not true. I've been on it since Jan. I went up to 200 when I wrote. So I had a knock out sleep aid for about 4 months....

Back off meds again. The stomach ache came on in spite of topamax and then heart palpitations and face muscle twitches. Finally I like had enough. But I got a brake. Now the rough part is getting...

I guess I just have to pick one of those entries? Anyway I had a revelation. I kind of like seroquel. I guess it's my favorite because it works right away and it buffers my thinking and I dream and...

Why won't it let me select a theme? May be that is saying something about my life? Oh yes I think so. The Universe and I are One. It occurred to me this morning as I shoved my meds into my mouth...