LornaR

I think I can feel my mind deteriorating. It's scary. If I lose my memory I don't want to live. All the things I've thought about are what keep me going. At least I'm not feeding the memory loss with...

I inspire myself. It is only for others and other living things that I feel deeply sad and that's not selfish. Cool! How did this come to be? My life is a struggle. I wouldn't wish my diseases on...

I reread my profile. What a person! I'm funny. Moodeeeee!! :)

Almost went in the hospital. The worst is over I believe. Only made a slight ass out of myself this time. It could get worst but I'm thinking it's over. Time to go to sleep for a week. Awe.

Where have I been? What have I been up to? Oh my God, it's too much and been too long. I have nothing to say except that I have the best life one could want and the best friends in the world, the...

Frustrating or tragic. Sometimes being abstinent from drugs, alcohol, sex, cigaretts, sugar, white flour, thumb sucking, it all fucking sucks man. Big time. I just want to go "act out" and I know...

So I've been resigned to paying close attention to my moods. I fucking hate it but at the same time if I chose to live without being medicated I really have no choice in the matter. I woke up every...

My friends have said that I seem to be better than they have ever known me to be! Wow! I read in here that I was again happy with my progress back in July around the 4th. I have had a very...

Still doing good. I quit the samE. It was giving me too much energy. God knows I don't need more. I still am sleeping less than I used to. Starting to think it's permanent and I have changed. Hum......

Happy and anxious really. I definitely feel manic. Oh dear. And it is so fun once again. How do I let this happen? Why does this happen? Well it's 1 AM so I best go to bed. Haven't slept over 6 hours...

Don't need much sleep right now. Interesting, I feel so good. I abstained from my eating disorder for 2 days and ate lots of veggies and brown rice. I've been drinking kombucha and taking samE. But...

All in all I'm doing pretty good still. I guess I'm doing better than I think I am.

When I answer posts I always feel anxious. I did get attacked on here once but that was a long time ago and the outcome made us all grow. But I still, I think it's cause I really care you know?Man...