LornaR

I just read my last entry. The depression is worse. Still have energy though. I wish I could just sleep it off. It's 1 am. I wish I was asleep. I keep having impulses to die. Like or to think of ways...

Been feeling shaky like okay and then totally depressed, then okay, depressed, okay, depressed. This is tiring. Just now I looked around and noticed that I cleaned my house so that's cool. I thought...

Life is funny and not funny. Boy ain't that the truth? I think I have borderline personality disorder along with obsessive compulsive personality disorder, I probably am bipolar 1, have PTS symptoms,...

Went to 2 AA meetings and I'll probably go to a 3rd this evening. Or perhaps I'll do the NA. Or I could go to an OA...I qualify for just about all of them! :)  Went to court to support someone and...

I think I can feel my mind deteriorating. It's scary. If I lose my memory I don't want to live. All the things I've thought about are what keep me going. At least I'm not feeding the memory loss with...

I inspire myself. It is only for others and other living things that I feel deeply sad and that's not selfish. Cool! How did this come to be? My life is a struggle. I wouldn't wish my diseases on...

I reread my profile. What a person! I'm funny. Moodeeeee!! :)

Almost went in the hospital. The worst is over I believe. Only made a slight ass out of myself this time. It could get worst but I'm thinking it's over. Time to go to sleep for a week. Awe.

Where have I been? What have I been up to? Oh my God, it's too much and been too long. I have nothing to say except that I have the best life one could want and the best friends in the world, the...

Frustrating or tragic. Sometimes being abstinent from drugs, alcohol, sex, cigaretts, sugar, white flour, thumb sucking, it all fucking sucks man. Big time. I just want to go "act out" and I know...

So I've been resigned to paying close attention to my moods. I fucking hate it but at the same time if I chose to live without being medicated I really have no choice in the matter. I woke up every...

My friends have said that I seem to be better than they have ever known me to be! Wow! I read in here that I was again happy with my progress back in July around the 4th. I have had a very...

Still doing good. I quit the samE. It was giving me too much energy. God knows I don't need more. I still am sleeping less than I used to. Starting to think it's permanent and I have changed. Hum......