LornaR

So I've been communicating with spirits full time as of late sometimes feeling very psychotic around other people. Bring it on. I have no fear. I'm learning about them and giving them names. I'm kind...

The energy is gone. Sleeping so good. Lots of dreams. Sometimes I live for dreams. Been writing them down. Grateful I don't have some silly job I have to show up for. Felt happy this morning. I think...

I just read my last entry. The depression is worse. Still have energy though. I wish I could just sleep it off. It's 1 am. I wish I was asleep. I keep having impulses to die. Like or to think of ways...

Been feeling shaky like okay and then totally depressed, then okay, depressed, okay, depressed. This is tiring. Just now I looked around and noticed that I cleaned my house so that's cool. I thought...

Life is funny and not funny. Boy ain't that the truth? I think I have borderline personality disorder along with obsessive compulsive personality disorder, I probably am bipolar 1, have PTS symptoms,...

Went to 2 AA meetings and I'll probably go to a 3rd this evening. Or perhaps I'll do the NA. Or I could go to an OA...I qualify for just about all of them! :)  Went to court to support someone and...

I think I can feel my mind deteriorating. It's scary. If I lose my memory I don't want to live. All the things I've thought about are what keep me going. At least I'm not feeding the memory loss with...

I inspire myself. It is only for others and other living things that I feel deeply sad and that's not selfish. Cool! How did this come to be? My life is a struggle. I wouldn't wish my diseases on...

I reread my profile. What a person! I'm funny. Moodeeeee!! :)

Almost went in the hospital. The worst is over I believe. Only made a slight ass out of myself this time. It could get worst but I'm thinking it's over. Time to go to sleep for a week. Awe.

5 1/2 years done twice, 4 1/2 years done 3 times! This time around I anxiously awaited a 6 year chip, the first. Who knows how many times I had 6 months, 9 months, 3 months etc... I wasn't...

An AA birthday, just to remind me that things could and have been a lot worse. 8 years clean and sober, 5 1/2 years off nicotine, and 1 1/2 years without sugar or flour. It's so much easier. I don't...

When I read any posts it's like I am so much older and been dealing with this stuff so much longer. It kind of pisses me off. Like "Am I getting ill again?" Of course, it's a life long thing and the...