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- I was thinking today that if I had passed before him how would I want him to handle things.We had talked about how his dad had remarried pretty quick after his mom died. Some people cannot be alone. I believe Roby would have been like that. I have...
- It's been a year, I've dreaded this day for a long time. Didn't know how I'd do. So far so good, trying to focus on good times and not think about the day he died.I've heard from his girls, they are all very sad and hurting.Probably tonight will...
- A friend of mine's husband passed away this week, I just learned of it.Her first husband passed away in 2008 and then she married her high school sweethart and was so happy again. To lose 2 husbands in 6 years, I think would just be too much to...
- An "adopted" son of ours and his wife had a baby today and they named him after Roby.He really looked up to Roby and doesnt have any family to speak of. So I get to be an honorary grandmother.So proud of them and it really meant alot for them to...
- I manage some apartments and yesterday one of our elderly tenants called and asked if there was someone that I could send over to apartment because she wasn't feeling well.Well it turned out she was having a heart attack. But while waiting for the...
- Since roby died i've been sad, upset, lonely and grieving. This last week I can actaully say I'm depressed. Cant sleep. Dont care about food or work.The only thing that keeps me going is my dog. If not for her I probably wouldnt get out of bed or go...
- My stepdaughter was suppose to come spend the night. Roby's headstone was placed a few days ago and I guess she was feeling she needed to be here.But she called and said "I'm just feeling to good and I know if I come there I'll be depressed".She...
- Well today the headstone was placed. It looks very nice, Roby would have been impressed.His daughters and I went in together and picked it out and paid for it. It all came from the heart.I thought I'd be more emotional seeing it, but I'd already...
- Tonight I'm indulging myself in a pity party. It's been a sad week and next week it will 4 months since he passed and I have an auditor coming in for the week at work.So tonight I've opened a bottle of wine and the Oreos.I'm just missing my honey.
- How do you get past not bring able to save someone?He had cancer and i know logically we did everything possible. But i feel like i let him down.
- I've been trying to get out when people want me to and sometimes it's my idea.But I've got some friends that keep telling me how good it is for me to get out, I know but sometimes I don't want to.Well, some are wanting me commit to parties or...
- The other day a neighbors daughter approached me about buying my husbands truck. I told her I would get back to her, needed to check price and stuff. I don't want to sell but need to.So this afternoon I talked to her and told her price and she...
- Okay, I was paying bills and realized I needed to order new checks. Started the order online and realized I probably needed to take Roby's name off the checks.I really hate all this.
- Almost every night when I head to bed I have a little panic attack. Some nights I can't stand be in the bedroom and I really have a hard time when the tv is off.My mind starts thinking of the whole ordeal of cancer, what could we have done...
- I'm curious if anyone else has step children. I'm thinking at some point Roby's girls will lose contact with me and I'll never see the grandkids again. Partly because their mother never liked sharing time with their Dad she sure won't like sharing...