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Well another boring day.  I guess my nerves are at their ends from my husband being home so much.  I know that's terrible to say, but we just are not used to spending so much time together.  Plus...

Yesterday, seemed to take forever, and as boring as it was, I still forgot to write in my journal.  Well, not much happened yesterday.   I was a bit aggravated all day, and I'm not sure why. ...

I don't know how I keep erasing my journals half way through writing them, but I have done this so many times and it's really pissing me off.  I begin to write another sentence and then poof....it's...

Well, day twelve came and I have to admit it is getting much easier.  The cravings are less frequent and don't seem to last as long.  I have been dealing with a little bout of depression and that...

When I made my goals the other day, I noticed that DS puts them down as habits....I surely know that even with my best argument, to keep drinking and smoking I absolutely love the word "habit".  It...

Well, this morning I woke up with more bad dreams to remember.  I would write them down but I think I want to forget these.  I slept really late 8:30, which has not been so unusual lately.  I...

Last night I had such a powerful dream, or should I say nightmare.  I remember it so vividly, like as if I was watching movie.  There I was in a bar with my dad, a friend, and myself.  I was...

When I look back at my last day of smoking, I can't believe how upset I was.  I was smoking one cigarette after another in just disbelief that I was quitting.  Now that it is day 8, I am not...

Geez, is it just me or are they everywhere?  Outside of Walgreens, outside of Jewel, walking down the street, in the car next to me.....all are smoking!  Kind of driving me nuts at times.  Other...

Today I am feeling much better.  After all the nausea, I decided to do more research and found a bunch of forums where they talk about the stomach upset of quitting smoking.  It all made a bunch of...

I am sick.  I don't know if it is the Chantix, but after two days of feeling nauseous, I think I'll wean myself off of it.  After doing a lot of research on Chantix, I thought about how well my...

Ok, just like when I stopped drinking alcohol, I had to go through a number of firsts.  Yesterday was my first time cooking dinner without smoking.  It was tough at the time, but now I see it could...

Ok, day 3.  First I'll write about last night.   I had what you would call an almost relapse.  Yes, I know I shouldn't have cigarettes in the house while trying to quit, but I did have 1/2 pack...

I'm writing this today because I wanted to make sure I would make it.  Had I  written it last night....who knows.  Anyway, I made it through yesterday a bit easier than I thought.  Was it the...

Wow, the day is almost over........tomorrow will be hopefully a smoke free day, please let it be a smoke free day.  I want this to happen so badly.  I can't believe this day is almost over :(   I...