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Since I've moved back to this state, I've noticed everyone smokes and drinks.  I can't even begin to be on their same level.  My sister just was diagnosed with liver disease (cirrhosis).  She will...

I have to start keeping track of my life.  I don't plan on living forever, and when I do go.....well, people will know why. My birthday was the other day.  I had to work in the morning, but then...

I want to definitely journal this for today.  So far it is one of the most trying days since I quit smoking.  I am dying for a cigarette.  I am watching my new neighbors (who I don't know) parents...

Well, I was busy yesterday and didn't get a chance to do any journaling.  Today I woke from such a fantastic dream.  Couldn't remember it 5 minutes after I woke up, but I was in such a good mood. ...

Well it's about 1:00pm - My day so far has been filled with sadness along with some good accomplishments.  The sad part is just me feeling so bad for the whole thing that happened in Japan.  I mean...

Today I made phone calls.  My husband thinks I have closed myself up to the world since I stopped smoking.  He says I need to start talking to people or else get out of the house because he thinks...

Just another boring day.  I will keep saying my prayers for all who need God's help.  

OK, I had an ok day.  Nothing much to say about it.    Oh yeah, I didn't cry today......miracle.  I did do some laundry, and then I spent a good part of the day watching my husband watch tv...

I don't know what to say about today.  I think I should lock my journals after I write this one.  At least until I feel better.  I think I have multiple problems.   I think it's more than...

Today was another bad day.  One after the other.  It's due to my husbands inability to tell me the whole truth.  He tells me these 1/2 lies.  Then when the whole truth finally comes out, I'm so...

To everyone on here that may read this, I want to say thank you.  Thank you for being so nice to me.  Thank you for the hugs you have given me.  They make me smile and feel like people care.I am...

I'm having a really bad day today and I  just want a damn cigarette.  I don't care anymore.   I just want a cigarette because this is what I do when I am this depressed is smoke and smoke and...

Well, today is just the same as yesterday.  Why am I so depressed?  I cried again for a long time.  I'm being mean to everyone in the house and I feel so bad about it.  I'm mad, I'm angry, and...

Well, today is just the same as yesterday.  Why am I so depressed?  I cried again for a long time.  I'm being mean to everyone in the house and I feel so bad about it.  I'm mad, I'm angry, and...

Today, my anxiety got the best of me.  I obviously did not smoke, but I had to take more clonazepam  than usual.  I am not sure what happened today, but I just broke down crying for a couple of...