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It's all gone.  The anxiety, the depression, most of the anger, and it's getting better everyday.  Since I started running everyday I have been able to manage the anxiety and depression.  Shoot, I...

Things are better, so much better.  I am fully off of any anxiety medication and also only have anxiety attacks every once in a while.  Those few anxiety attacks I have handled without taking a...

Things are finally good.  New job, new friends, new house, new hobby.

Still here

This year is starting off better than ever.  I don't want to jinx it so because I am waiting on one final moment to make it truly the best year ever.  Will continue...

I think that I'm at the end of my rope.  With the holidays, no job, trying to be sober, trying not to think about a cigarette......shit, what the hell am I doing?  Why have I made my life so...

I have to start keeping track of my life.  I don't plan on living forever, and when I do go.....well, people will know why. My birthday was the other day.  I had to work in the morning, but then...

I want to definitely journal this for today.  So far it is one of the most trying days since I quit smoking.  I am dying for a cigarette.  I am watching my new neighbors (who I don't know) parents...

Well, I was busy yesterday and didn't get a chance to do any journaling.  Today I woke from such a fantastic dream.  Couldn't remember it 5 minutes after I woke up, but I was in such a good mood. ...

Well it's about 1:00pm - My day so far has been filled with sadness along with some good accomplishments.  The sad part is just me feeling so bad for the whole thing that happened in Japan.  I mean...

Today I made phone calls.  My husband thinks I have closed myself up to the world since I stopped smoking.  He says I need to start talking to people or else get out of the house because he thinks...

Just another boring day.  I will keep saying my prayers for all who need God's help.  

OK, I had an ok day.  Nothing much to say about it.    Oh yeah, I didn't cry today......miracle.  I did do some laundry, and then I spent a good part of the day watching my husband watch tv...

I don't know what to say about today.  I think I should lock my journals after I write this one.  At least until I feel better.  I think I have multiple problems.   I think it's more than...

Today was another bad day.  One after the other.  It's due to my husbands inability to tell me the whole truth.  He tells me these 1/2 lies.  Then when the whole truth finally comes out, I'm so...