A Blessing In My Life

So it has been a while since I've been on here. Things have been improving in someways I guess. One thing that has definitely improved is the fact that I don't feel as alone as I used to. I now have a friend that I trust, that has stuck by me regardless of all the crazy truths I've told her. I don't know if she actually knows it, but I think our friendship, knowing that I have a friends like her, changed my life a lot. It has helped me a lot. I haven't cut in a long time. I haven't been feeling like I'm completely alone in this crazy and scary world. I finally feel like I have a friend, and it's something that I used to think I'd never have. I used to believe that I wasn't good enough to have any friends. I'm so crazy that no one would want to be my friend. And even if they did, they'd only be my friends because they want something from me -although I don't really have anything to offer lol- or would stop being my friend the moment I was truthful about all the shit in my life because they'd think I'm totally screwed up. But she's still here, she's still the greatest friend I've had. And somehow she hasn't said I've had enough of her shitty drama and left. And that is something I'm extremely grateful for.