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- Well, there's this guyit's always the same one Everyone tells me he's bad for me he's toxic and manipulative and is using me as an anchor to "save him from himself" which doesn't really make sense...because if he's such a bad person, why would he...
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- It's new years in a few days...and I hate to say that I am going to do nothing. No party with friends. No kiss when the clock strikes midnight. Maybe it's because I've been reading novels of great love, or growing affection from friends. I want...
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- I mentioned in my previous post that I thought I liked being bullied. Well, last night I saw my bully. He looked at his shoes. And when I stared at him, hard, and daring him to look up. He looked anywhere but me. I realized how effective a sheild...
- Lately, I've been feeling inadequate. -In my personality-in my looks-in my intelligence. -in my empathy. I've been told I am charming. But, if I'm so charming why does everyone feel the need to alienate me? It started my senior year in high school.I...
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