Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
Lately, I've been feeling inadequate.
-In my personality
-in my looks
-in my intelligence.
-in my empathy.
I've been told I am charming. But, if I'm so charming why does everyone feel the need to alienate me? It started my senior year in high school.I went to a catholic high school, and was shunned because of my sense of humor, my weight, and my agnostic beliefs(i have since believed in Him again. He came to my rescue when I was in mental health.)
It's like okay I'm fat. But what about my compassion for others? My intelligence? I can make a smart, witty response and my shunners would roll their eyes. But, at my old school I would get a chuckle.
I used to be so caring;but now, if I don't care about myself, why should I care about you?
Especially since few people give a shit about me.
What makes me so repulsive to the opposite sex? I know I'm fat, my old friend never fails to remind me(that ass)
But I am well-proportion, and well have a big bra size.
Can they tell there is something wrong with me? So deep in my flaws, that they can see through it?
My old friend is my fellow bipolar from high school. He gets it. He understands what it's like to be so "down" that getting out of bed seems like a chore.
I just don't know what to do with my life. I've been so lost and angry then sad for years now.
I want to make my future bright, and secure.
I have the intelligence, yet everything can fall to pieces if I'm manic or depressed?
I often ask what made God curse me with this illness?
At 15, I used to have it all.Beauty, In AP/honors classes, friends...but does that seem shallow?
People with looks are treated better, and when I was depressed i didn't do any of my homework. When I stopped being depressed, i was so angry and thought "If you put effort, and fail, it'll be okay. Because you will fail anyway"
So, I pray and withdraw from human reaction(they'll judge me anyway) , spill all in my therapy sessions.
But, what good is that when I'm crazy?
Es
-In my personality
-in my looks
-in my intelligence.
-in my empathy.
I've been told I am charming. But, if I'm so charming why does everyone feel the need to alienate me? It started my senior year in high school.I went to a catholic high school, and was shunned because of my sense of humor, my weight, and my agnostic beliefs(i have since believed in Him again. He came to my rescue when I was in mental health.)
It's like okay I'm fat. But what about my compassion for others? My intelligence? I can make a smart, witty response and my shunners would roll their eyes. But, at my old school I would get a chuckle.
I used to be so caring;but now, if I don't care about myself, why should I care about you?
Especially since few people give a shit about me.
What makes me so repulsive to the opposite sex? I know I'm fat, my old friend never fails to remind me(that ass)
But I am well-proportion, and well have a big bra size.
Can they tell there is something wrong with me? So deep in my flaws, that they can see through it?
My old friend is my fellow bipolar from high school. He gets it. He understands what it's like to be so "down" that getting out of bed seems like a chore.
I just don't know what to do with my life. I've been so lost and angry then sad for years now.
I want to make my future bright, and secure.
I have the intelligence, yet everything can fall to pieces if I'm manic or depressed?
I often ask what made God curse me with this illness?
At 15, I used to have it all.Beauty, In AP/honors classes, friends...but does that seem shallow?
People with looks are treated better, and when I was depressed i didn't do any of my homework. When I stopped being depressed, i was so angry and thought "If you put effort, and fail, it'll be okay. Because you will fail anyway"
So, I pray and withdraw from human reaction(they'll judge me anyway) , spill all in my therapy sessions.
But, what good is that when I'm crazy?
Es
Depression - we isolate, and I'm sure people treated you like shit, BUT Everyone is not bad, and hurt you - its life, Schools can suck, Jobs can suck, I've seen MEAN people in Church that suck!
It does get better - if you want friends you have to be a friend!!! Who are you calling, and asking out? When they say No, do you never call again???? Or do you call and invite them again? There are many people in life that are good - some with worse problems than ours.
When I was in a horrible place and thought life and everyone sucked - I went to a Support Group - they accepted me miserable, and taught me "Why care about what people, YOU don't care about - Thinks???? Not only that - what makes you so Powerful - you know what everyone is Thinking? That is a good trick!!! LOL
Your wrong - people are not thinking about you at all - strangers don't care what you look like, people from school - screwed up, before during and after.....
You can have a good life fat or skinny - if you fat bothers you, do something about it, if it doesn't then get out there and have a life, whatever size you are - LIVE...... Go, Play, Meet PEOPLE...
Alanon and NAMI - helped me make friends that accepted a Bipolar, depressed mess - when I was better, they played with me! Now I can play - with anyone, not just people with PROBLEMS TOO ...LOL (((BIG HUG))))
You CAN have a good life, any size - there are friends to be made Here and in real life : )
That's terrible that church going people are mean! And thank you for all your advice. It makes sense.
@tommymott, you're the only guy I know that likes big girls. lol. i'm losing weight though. Thank god