FallenAngel

Spent a wonderful weekend with my girlfriend.  Went to the beach and hunted for shark's teeth, browsed the antique shops then went to my son's restaurant for dinner.  It all went too fast.  I was...

Having a bad morning today.  I had a dream last night that Gene was lying next to me in bed and I could actually feel his arm around me.  It was so comforting and so wonderful and then I woke up...

Oh, the weekends are  so hard.  It's when I really miss Gene the most.  Being here all alone with no ambition to do anything.  Did get to the grocery store this morning.  Need to feed the kids...

Oh, I miss Gene so much today.  A song, a smell, a sound, a sight all remind me of him and then the tears start flowing all over again.  Will this roller coaster ever stop?  Better day at work...

Another boring day at work and it doesn't look to be any better for the rest of the week.  I know I shouldn't complain, at least I have a job.  But I get so restless and anxious with nothing to...

I have not accomplished much today.  I've been lying around enjoying the beautiful weather which means I'll have twice as much to do tomorrow.  Just don't have the ambition today to do anything. ...

I miss you my love, everyday, every moment, more each day since you've been gone.  Not much has changed since the day you were taken away from us except that our lives will never be the same again...

Bad day today.  Don't know whether it's the rain or the fact that I've been dreaming about Gene quite alot lately.  Not that dreaming of him makes me feel bad, I just don't want to wake up from...

My job is so boring it's driving me crazy so I left early today and came home and got the lawn mowed, the trash cans in and the recycle out.  Looking endlessly for a new job.  Checking every site I...

Well, first good news.  My son has decided not to move for now but to commute to his new job.  Of course, the reason involves a certain girl that he wants to try and make a go with a relationship...

The last few weeks I've been thinking about who I am without Gene.  Finding myself seems to be so hard.  What do I really love?  What do I really hate?  What do I want to do with the rest of my...

I just can't seem to move on out of my grief.  There are so many things I need to get done and I have no desire to do anything.  Just spent 1/2 hour crying and asking God why he took the love of my...

I'm still having such a hard time dealing with Gene's death.  I think about him every moment of everyday and miss him more now than before.  Time isn't healing my wounds, it seems to just be making...

Sunday night my son came over to the house to tell me how worried he and some of his friends were about me.  He was so sincere and so caring.  He told me I need to get out more, that his dad...

Well, yesterday I never got out of bed due to my overwhelming depression.  Even though I take my med faithfully, they just aren't working.  I don't know where to turn.  I see a psychiatrist and...