FallenAngel

Yes, we are supposed to get more snow tomorrow night and into Tuesday morning.  Hopefully it will be just a few inches which would be a blessing.  The sun is shining here today and it's a warm 37...

It's still snowing like crazy outside and I've been house bound for the past week.   The only time I got out was to go to counseling and then the snow started again on Wednesday.  My office has...

Well, I wrote a whole journal entry and ending up losing my connection, and my journal entry.  So here goes again.  I've been doing ok, not great, but ok.  I've been putting in more hours at work...

Well, I made it through the holidays, but not without shedding many tears.  I've been reading quite a lot lately which seems to help. It's also been pretty tough having my mother living here.  I so...

I'm having such a hard time right now.  I still miss Gene so much and Thanksgiving seems to have set me back a month on the progress I thought I was making.  I can't bring myself to go Christmas...

Well, I made it through Thanksgiving.  i ended up cooking and had my son, his friend, my brother in law and my  mom here.  Then all three of my nephews showed up after dinner and it was so great...

Well, my motherhas moved in with me.  The hospital would not release her to live on her own anymore and wanted to send her to a rehabilitation facility.  I literally had 2 hours to make a decision...

When the grief hits, it hits hard.  I had a really bad day yesterday and spent most of the day in bed sleeping just trying to escape the pain that was so overwhelming.  I seem to be doing a little...

It's been raining here for days now and the gloom doesn't help my mood much at all.  I'm missing Gene a lot this morning.  I keep a stack of pictures of him in the drawer next to my bed.  When I...

Time flies.  A whole week has passed since my last entry.  My birthday turned out to be one of the best I can remember.  All 12 of the kids showed up, even Sean who is in the Navy and stationed at...

I can't help but feel melancholy this weekend.  I keep remembering how much Gene loved this time of year and how we'd make our annual trip to West Virginia, sit on the porch of the hotel and enjoy...

I made it through another week without Gene.  How I'm doing this I'll never know.  I've had my moments this week.  The pain is not as raw but goes deeper in my soul than before.  The tears still...

Well, I went out with my friend and her daughter yesterday to get a dress for her homecoming dance.  She's a freshman in high school and just a sweet girl.  She loved the first dress she tried on...

Thanks to all of you who commented on my latest journal entry.  It's feels good to know I'm not alone in all this.  My counselor tells me that one day I'll wake up and just decide it's time to go...

Well, I managed to spend the day yesterday cleaning up Gene's work room.  What a mess.  My dear husband didn't throw anything away he thought he might be able to fix.  On top of that he must have...