The weekends

Oh, the weekends are  so hard.  It's when I really miss Gene the most.  Being here all alone with no ambition to do anything.  Did get to the grocery store this morning.  Need to feed the kids tomorrow night.  Now I'm home and feeling so sad and lost.  When does it end?  When does the pain of my loss become more bearable?  Will it ever?  I'm lonely and sad and I just want the pain to go away.