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- Jon brought up a really good point in another post. It sounded harsh but in reality I think it's just the truth and I know it comes from his heart.... he wants every single one of us to beat this. Willpower will most likely never be enough to stop...
- I want to change, not just quit gambling. I want to heal those parts of my life that either threw me into gambling or kept me there for so long. For me, one thing I know is that I never learned to communicate my feelings because they were seldom...
- I've been in recovery for 7 months.Recently I was prompted to write a letter to my addiction. It was a painful thing to write but I recommend it for everyone. I'm thinking I'll write one every 6 months because I think my feelings will change over...
- It was not that long ago that I was new. Ive been in recovery since June of last year. The biggest thing that I have learned so far (and Im still learning every day) is that you have to put some actions into your desire to quit. The will to quit is...
- The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that...
- This is a journal entry from May 24, 2010. I gambled for 2 more years hard core. I cant believe I lived like this for 2 entire years! Im a freaking survivor! My life is not perfect right now, in fact Im dealing with some stress and sadness, but by...
- I've been in a serious funk lately. That seems to be what my life is about... being in a funk. It's strange because I always imagined myself a positive person. BUT then I look back over some journal entries I wrote 7 years ago (before I started...
- I've had so much free time since I stopped gambling. I think I never had much free time when I was gambling because I was either gambling, thinking of ways to go gambling or thinking about how miserable my life was because of gambling. At least once...
- I found a great list of ideas to help with recovery. Many of them stood out for me. Number 7 was one of those.7. Dont confuse enthusiasm for action. Figure out what you need to do to stay sober and then do it.I had so much enthusiasm for...
- I was watching Storytellers on television last night. Jason Mraz was the storyteller. He told the story behind his song The Remedy about how his friend got cancer and basically took the attitude that he wasnt going to worry his life away. He was...
- There is no magic in today. Let's not decide that it's a lucky day... or let the junkie voice convince us that it is. It's just another Wednesday and besides there is no luck involved in gambling. If there was, we'd all be rich because we all...
- I had one of those days where you can't wait to get in bed. It was just screwed from the minute I woke up. I thought about gambling all day. I was going to go and show everyone who really didn't give a d*mn! ME. I didn't go. Circumstances (beyond my...
- It's been 5 months since I went to my favorite casino, plus 1 day! I really never thought I could do 5 days, let alone 5 months. I had really thought about and tried to quit for at least 3 years. The last 2 years I was sick over it all of the time...
- Apromise just posted this and I think it is THE key to quitting. Having the desire to quit is meaningless without action. What are y'all willing to do to quit gambling?
- Character defect kind of seems like a yucky phrase. What else could it be called? Vicky brought up something in a post recently about character defects and it was an aha moment for me. In therapy, Ive been getting guidance that leads to insight that...