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- On my tv set I'm watching a live broadcast of the reading of the names of those who died on 9-11-2001. It's been 14 years, but the reading of the names reminds me that surrounding each name there is a cluster of loved ones who are still working...
- I just sent an email to my boss at the community college where I teach complaining for the first time that the staff in charge of technology in my classroom haven't maintained it so it works.It's a big deal for me to confront something like this. ...
- Trigger WarningI had a good time going to the city for a MLB baseball game this weekend, so I spent today all alone in my house getting lessons ready for the rest of the week.I cover them up more when I'm out in public, but when I'm alone for long...
- We discuss the first 2 F's out of the 4 F's for PTSD a lot here--how our fight or flight PTSD responses get triggered. We also talk a bit about the 3rd F (freeze, as in dissociating). But when I went to Pete Walker's website for something else...
- I have Netflix and just recently discovered that Netflix has the tv series Rescue Me starring Denis Leary. It's about NY firefighters who have PTSD in the 10 years after 9/11. Surely not everybody's cup of tea with all the sex and foul language in...
- Thanks for all the good wishes for my first day back teaching community college. Today went well except for one curve ball I didn't expect. Students in a class of mine bullied me for the first time in my life as a teacher since 1980. My boss...
- Thanks for your support about it, because I did well OK in the college meetings all day yesterday. I did OK with my boss, too.But I've been exhausted today, the day after. I've slept all day the day after! Does anyone get exhausted with their...
- I told Leo and Lilly about this in hugs today, and then I posted it on the "Countdown" thread, too, but it's so unusual for me I decided to give it its own thread in recognition of what a DS PTSD little miracle it was today.I had a little trouble...
- Back in May I kind of ran out of gas as far as teaching to the end of the school year. I have flashbacks every day, sometimes up there in front of a class full of 35 students. Sometimes it's hard to stay functional, concentrate, and keep my stuff...
- My father's birthday snuck up on me. This week I got in from a long trip (Uruguay). Then right away had this problem with a coworker (his wife asked me not to drive him to supermarket as he's alcoholically drinking mouthwash). So I didn't have...
- I have an assistant at work who can't drive--had his license taken away after a big accident a couple of years ago. I was led to believe it was epilepsy that caused it. I found out differently today.On the way home from work, he often asked me to...
- So the time has come: I leave Uruguay to return to the USA tomorrow. It's been great to revisit the happy places of my youth here. It's been just as great to stare down some of the scary places. Revisiting places where I got PTSD in my youth...
- Hey, good thing I had a self-affirming dream, huh? Talk about timing. I had that dream yesterday. Today I got an email from an old high school friend who had been stringing me along since I got here about how we'd get together down here during my...
- Last night I had a special dream. I've come down to Uruguay where I grew up and got PTSD in a civil war, looking to come back to the beginning and get renewal. I got it in my dream last night.They say when you dream all the characters are...
- I just got a phone call from my old high school friend down here in Uruguay. We were going to get together this afternoon, but he's had to cancel. His step mom just died today.Grief happens everywhere and at any time, huh? I teach Kubler Ross's...